waiting for things to pan out

butchaknow
i struggle to sit around and wait for things
i really do.
so when i am waiting for htings to "sort themselves out" or "pan out"
i have to do something
and unfortunately, the things that i do
aren't the greatest

sure, i go read
but then it doesn't quite keep my mind off things entirely,
and when i try to explain what's going on to people, it just turns out badly
so
sorry for that
i really am sorry

well, holiday time for me now!
and when i get back in 2 weeks' time, maybe
hopefully
things will become clearer

that's really all i can hope for, right?