Dear Soulmate

December 24 2009

I believe i met you today. i really really do. it was...exhilarating. absolutely amazing
speechless


December 25 2009

I saw you this morning, but you were walking away from me. Not sure what to think.


December 26 2009

I spent all day today uploading photos for you! It's great to know that the things that only i can do are actually being appreciated by somebody!


December 31 2009

I don't even know why i'm still writing these anymore. You're here now, and i shoul dbe saying all of this to you. And i could be, too. Aaaahh...i just can't get enough of this invicible feeling. I can't believe how everything worked out so magically... wow.


January 1 2010

oh dear, i had no idea that i had the capacity to hurt somebody that much. and for that somebody to be YOU... It's quite amazing, actually. I know exactly how your'e feeling every minute of the day, and i can't stop wondering how you are, whta you're doing, if you're keeping well


January 3 2010

i believe that you just made my day by hanging around after church today! it made me realise that i really have helped you become more like you were before. and see how they all welcomed you back with open arms? see how it wasn't just me who was ecstatic to see you? They did miss you. they DO miss you. and they WILL miss you.
The way you looked at me when you came to pick up the stuff for Peter, made me realise how much you need me. Don't think i'll be leaving any time soon.


January 4 - 5 2010

I knew all day that something was up. and indeed, something was up.
oh dear.

It's been ...not even 2 weeks. and all i got was a taste of the real you. and i want more. i want to help you so much more, and i want you to know that you CAN wear your heart on your sleeve. But now i know why i've started writing to you again. I'm not too sure where you are right now, i mean, i know where you are PHYSICALLY, but mentally, spiritually, soul-ly? i'm completely at loss.

But somebody once told me that they were given a horrible first impression by someone. But they kept at it, and soon came to realise that it was very much worth it. well, think of it this way, soulmate. i've had a taste of what life could be like with you around. and i want so so much more. i want every day to be like that day when you made me laugh uncontrollably, and when i made you laugh uncontrollably. i want all my days to be like that, carefree, happy, and ...HAPPY.

and im' going to keep at it. i'm going to fin dyou again. this time, i know what you look like, i know who you are. gosh, i even have your phone number! that's an improvement from the last time iwas looking for you, hey? But this time, you're going to be harder to find. because i caused you to withdraw even further into your shell. sso i'm going ot have to push it harder. i'm going to have to work harder and prove to you that it's not something you can just throw away.

after all, if i don't have you, i don't have anything
i'm going to give it this one last, massive effort
and if it turns out for the worse, i'll just focus on studying. on achieving my goals, in the hope that one day, when i'm successful, you'll find me and say "hey there soulmate. Sorry it took me so long to find you". it'll be easier for you to find me if everyone knows who i am.

you know how well i can read your emotions, your tone of voice, even the tone of your words. c'mon. i'm a word crafter for crying out loud. i'm a word artist. of course i know these things. and above all, i'm your soulmate. of course i know. i can tell exactly what you're thinking by the tone of your voice, your word choice in your emails and sms-s and even how you spell thigns. freaky, i know. but what can you do? it's this freaky quirk i have as a word crafter. so when you said "speak to you another time" i knew exactly what it meant

not "speak to you soon" like it always is. another time is not soon. another time could mean in another lifetime for all i know. so don't you tell me that you're not hurt
because you damn well are

Dear Soulmate,
I wish you weren't gone.