What do you think about?

SO, what do you think abouT?
when you're bored
and tired
and you can't get to sleep
what thoughts creep into your mind?
what keeps you awake at night?
what keeps you awake during lessons?

have you ever wondered that?
have you ever looked at someone completely spaced out, 'off with the fairies' during a class and wonder, what the hell are they thinking about that's keeping them so occupied?

well, i wonder about that sometimes

and i shall answer this question first
because...noone else seems to be jumping out of their seats with ready answers

i think about the future
i think about the present
i think about the past

i think about what could be
i think about what should have happened
i think about how stupid i was to do something like...*fill in the blank*
i think about where else i could be
and what else i could be doing
i think about the book i'm currently reading
i think about how i want the characters to end up
i think about what could go wrong
whether it's in the book
or in my life
sometimes, i even think about whether i'm a good enough person
am i a bad person, then, if people don't like me?
if i'm too mean sometimes?
maybe so.

but there's nothing you can change about that, is there?
so it's november, guys!
NO vem ber
no VEM ber
no vem BER

aha
just in case you were wondering
i say 'no VEM ber'
not any of the other...variations

things i like to do in my spare time:
1. read
i love escaping
i love the prospect of entering someone's life because they feel the need to share it with you
an dknowing that you'll be privy to all of the characters' secrets
it's better than gossip, though because there's absolutely no wa y in which you can stuff any friendships up by telling people secrets. see, that's what stuffs up friendships and relationships. ugh, irrelevant. i love a good ending. a proper ending. even if it's a happy-ever-after ending
because at least i know that i'm leaving the characters and the world in a happy and satisfied state =)

2. writing
i love being able to express myself with words
i'm a word crafter, so i like to say
because i am able to craft everything
as long as i have words =)

3. singing loudly and off-key
makes me feel invincible

4. swimming
relaxing, focuses your mind while letting it wander
makes you feel physically GOOD
simply amazing.

5. making people laugh
i love having the power to make someone else's day
with a joke
a really corny pun
or just
making them smile cause of something i've done
making them feel good about something, usually themselves
we all have that power
just....do we all use it?
i make sure i do, as much as possible

6. sleeping
hey. even superheros deserve a rest =P

school's nearly over
year 10's nearly over

i don't want to let go
but i want to move forwards
...
so what do YOU think?