cheer me up please!

okay so
cheer me up
c'mon
i'm WAITING!

gosh.

you know, this may sound really really corny
and most of you proabbly wouldn't understand
but i wish i lived closer ot church

why?
well because if i did
then i could just go and sit in there
jsut by myself
that's all i want

why? (dude you are ONE CURIOUS CHILD)
well because it's peaceful in there
it's quiet
it's calm
it's perfect

it's the only place where i know that i can be alone
and not be judged
alone being by myself with God
silence is good sometimes

but maybe i need some happy time :D
okay that sounded quite...odd
but i need a time when i can just relax
and scream
and ROAR
as loudly as i feel
wihtout anyone giving me weird looks

oh yeah
i'm th elittle girl who never cares aboutw hat other people think
riiiight
okay so well i'm about to stop caring abot what othe rpeople think
and just have fun
(pffft)

ah i think when i let my beautiful book go
when i left her at the publisher (yeah it's a girl. because i'ma girl)
i left with her my heart
:(
really depressing i know
but i put my herat and soul into that thing
that gorgeous thing
and now
she's gone
yeah yeah i'll get her back
but what am i supposed to do for the next 2 weeks without her?
i have no ...motivation to do work now
even thuogh it's just piling up
stupid work

i guess i ought to try and work now

oh i borrowd 6 books from the library today
that'd give me something to do =)

smile for me! (cause i won't be)