it's just routine

every morning, just before i open the front door
i take a deep breath
and think
bring it on world, today is going to be a good day

THEN i open the door
walk out
and there my day has officially begun; i have left my safe haven
and have entered the real world
well, the bigger world =)

and it doesn't always turn out to be a good day , because that's just impossible
wouldn't we all love it if every single day turned o ut to be a good day just because we said "today is going to be a good day" jsut before we started the day?
of course we would
we woudln't have a care in the world!

but that's just not reality, guys
it won't happen, no matter what
the chances of having a good day every single day are pretty low
unless you're extremely over-optimistic and think everything that happens is a good thing
but then i'd just say that you're living in an imaginary world
of your own
where it's just impossible to be so....optimistic

but the act of me telling myself that it's going to be a good day every day is a way of making sure that i wo'nt start off with a bad day
even though that somtimes just can't be stopped
and every time i take a deep breath
it's to brace myself
yes ,i must admit that i'm no angel
i have to brace myself
just like you humans
to take on the day
but i think that if you have the right attitude, the right way of thinking, you shoudl be able to conquer whatever life throws at you
and if you are lucky enough to have those a wesome people around you all the time, you are even better off than those optimistic kiddies.
because you have someone to fall back on. or more than one someone

"do not settle for the lowest apples on the tree. climb up a bit and reach for the apples right at the top. there they are the most delicious."
"and if i fall?"
*drops apple...and catches it*
"i will catch you..i feel such tenderness for you. it is hard to express. are we too old for words like love?"

no we are not!
yo ucoul dnever be =)

"and the old despair that was often there suddenly ceases to beeeee for you wake one day look around and say...somebody wonderful married me.."

aaha LOL

"there was a cabaret. there was a master of ceremonies. in a town called Berlin. in a country called Germany. it was the end. of. the. world."

btw, i loved philip's speech. awesome. LOL i could quote him aaaall day =)

"everything we did for the past 13 weeks related to "ze hottest spot in all of berlin-ze kit kat klub""

LOL
truly magnificent speech, Philip =)

but yes. sorry about the cabaret quotes. if there's a time and place, i'll quote. but no more for now.
it' just routine, this whole bracing myself and yeah.
it just is =)

SO!! WEETYR...??
;)
me. you. andy. talk.