i really don't like her...

no i don't. i do NOT like her. well some of you may know who i'm talking about. well if yoiu don't. too bad. anyway
this blog is NOT going ot be a huge bitching session about that person. even thuogh i reall ydon't like her at all. but NO i'm NOT going to be mean.

i have not written anything for a very long time. (yes, for those who haven't noticed, 5 days without blogging is a long time for me)
the long we ekend was freaking long
i swear i thought it was like a holiday!
it went on and on and on and i spent most of it doing homework, sleeping and playing piano. damn stupid songs that are TOO GOOD FOR MEE.

anyway thought for the past...few weeks
alright so in the week leading up to Production Week (LOL capitalised..;)), a lot of things were unveiled, in terms of...well, secrets! A blog was posted. shock was ...felt(??!) all around. everyone read it. a blog was posted in reply. a letter was sent. or three. and a letter was sent in reply (freaking long on e too...) and there was anger
there was screaming
and shouting
and crying
and just
anger.
tension
awkwardness
despite all efforts to make it NOT awkward
there itw as
still there
stupid thing. stupid element. stupid EMOTION called awkwardness
stuipd stupid. ruins everything

oh yeah, there wsa some...avoiding of people
there was a fence!
there was soemone sitting on that fence, getting their ass hurted by the fence
because it's tough being in the middle

but this is not about what happened
it's about what changed because of this thing that happened
not about the actual event, more like the effects of the event
so much has changed because of this event
even though we really don't dwell on it, because it wasn't supposed to change anything (supposedly)
but yeah it did change a LOT
it changed everyhting, i guess
everything from the way we talked ot each other to the way we...acted, to the peopel we hung around
i dunno
just a lot of things have changed
and i don't know if i like this changed world

maybe everything should have jsut stayed the way it was...
but then, that's just not life, guys
ahh this is such a depressing blog
yoiu know whya mi talking about such stupid, depressing things?
i mean COME ON
IT"S OVERRRR

it's passed, righ t?
no need to mention anymore
but still, things changed
and i guess i want everything to go back to the way they we r ebefore
before all of this happened, before all of this changed

ah i have vowed to myself to WORK HARD!
ah yeah how many tinmes have i promised myself that, hey?
well THIS TIME IT"S FOR REAAAAAAAAAL!
and to work hard
im' going to just not get so easily distracted
and matt said that i'm actually taknig control of my luife
so thank you matt =)
and i'm so glad it's working
so now i'm going to work even harderer at my other stupid goals :D err
i mean, my other, many MULTIPLE MILLIONS of awesome goals that will come true if i w ork hard enough
...
so i'm goign tow rok now guys
homework to dooo =)