...the end?

you know, i started this blog last year. around about WYD time. because ineeded somewhere i could just write whatever i thought. and it worked. well, for about a month or two. then i stopped writing in it. because, well...because i really didn't need it anymore. life was all good. and happy. and still on a massive high from WYD. and so it died for a while.
then earlier this year, i decided to revive it. because the need for somehwere to vent emotions arose again. and this time it's been going strongly for about....well for a while now. i'd say for almost 4 months? writing massive amounts about amazingly weird thoughts. some were angry, some were insanely happy. and now i'm slowing down again. no wa it. I"M not slowing down. my BLOG is. why? because the need to write isn't as s trong as it used to be. hence i'm only writing rubbish (well, my last 2 or so posts were all just random danielle-type JUNK). so i thought i'd give you guys a bit of reasoning behind my...ridiculously hilarous posts. it's because my mind jsut isn't as crowded with thoughts anymore. well, yes it is. it always WILL be. it's just that those thoughts are not ones that need to be written. sooooo yeah.
no it is NOT the end of my blog. i will keep writing in it, i swear. i will not kill my blog like andy has. or weetyr. yeah weetyr. BEAT THAT. you haven't written anything for aaaaaaaaages. anything besides song lyrics >__> oh and btw MUSICAL IS NOT AN EXCUSE!
it's okay. it really IS okay. because this blog shall live ON! (aahaha how corny =)) i'll just write whenever i need to. but no, i won't just abandon you readers and leave you hanging for the next crazy thought i have. life is good again. better than ever.
and no, i won't stop reading blogs. so keep writing dani =) and matt =)....and weetyr =).....START writing, andy..
but yeah. hw calls :D and so does the immigration museum. for my PP. aaaaah so much work to dooooo!!!
more later. i promise =)

did you know?

wendybird!
wendybird?
yeah WENDYBIRD!!
SHOOT THE WENDYBIRD!!
*bang bang bang*
*AAAAAAHHH!!*
*wooosh*
oh pETER! YOU SAVED MY LIFE!!

AAHAHA yeah i'm going through a bit of a peter pan phase atm
"oh peter! you saved my life!"
aaahahahaha LOL

oh yeah did you know
that if you tap marshmallows lightly against a table
they make this nice
pleasant
tap tap tap funky sound!
like
you wouldn't expect it from a MARSHMALLOW
like
i dind't know they had it in them!
but they make the awesomest sound when you tap them against a table
it's hilarous =)
yeah i'm eating marshmallows atm
and it's hilarous :D
because i dropped one and it made a funky sound
then i did it again
and again
and again
then just started tapping the table with the marshmallow
and YEAH
decided to share with you all

gosh. this sounds like a typical danielle post
O_O
yeah this is what musical is doing to me
*bang*

WENDYBIRD!

continuity

yeah.
that's what life is lacking atm
continuity
as soon as i start to think that eveyrthing's settled and well and good
IT"S NOT!
because something suddenly happens that causes whatever stability i have developed to come crashing down.

see, i always thought that friends are forever
i still believe in that
but...just not the old friends, right?
it seems to me that all those friendships that i have formed over the years have slowly either depleted and completley died away, or have turned evil...
because that's life, baby
that is life.
time flies by an dpeople change. hence you have those depleting frienships; because p eople change. personalities change wildly and the person you made friends with is completley diffeent to the person with whom you're trying to remain friends.
same thing with love
sometimes the person you think you love is compeltley different to the person with whom you fell in love. this is what causes relationships to die.
as the friends thing does to friendships.

family.
family is something that i can always rely on.i mean, for the past 14 years, i've bene having these family parties, every now and then.
and lately i've just realised that it's the same deal at each and every one of them. the same people come, the same things happen
but it never ever ever gets boring!
and i t's great because you get to see how people are changing as htey grow up.
i mean, it's been a while since i realised how old my little relatives really are! and i swear, every time we have a party our family is that much bigger
and more lively
and
and
!
yeah, i t's just the same thing every time and i'm not complaining. i'm commenting on the continuity that i can rely on when it comes to my family. beacuse huot is family now. even if he and catherine dont eventually ge tma rried, well. he'll always be part of us :D
beacuse of all that time that he has spent with us. mind you, if he breaks her heart he'll have the whole family after him
aaahaaa that'd be funny =)

church. continuity with church. aha so i thought. but then peter. stupid boy. he bursted my bubble and started talking about how our church isn't doing too well. i mean, once this current generation is gone, the church's future=0!
well let's not go into that atm.
but yeah he was doing a survey for someone about the VCC and he was telling me about it.
and i was thinking about it.
but yeah

see how my life lacks continuity?
i can always count on music, though
because as long as there is so und, there can be music
and i can always count on books
because as long as the re are words, there can be books

so there IS SOOOOOOME continuity. even if that ltitle tiny bit is teeeeny tiny


*if you believe you must be big in order to be tough. then you should get to know me i'll teach you other stuff!*

musicalmusicalmusical

so i'll be out for all of next week at the SENIOR CAMPUSSS!!!
because of MUSICAAAL
yeah it's production week next week
and i'm going to be DEAD tired
freaking run throughs alll day for the whole week
not t omention having to spend all that extra time with ms nicolle and mr m..
FUN
=)
nah that was mean
i take it back, guys
well i'm going ot be debating for the year 9 team on tuesday
because they need someone to fill in for them
and originally i was meant to be doing 2 speaker for them
but then dama told their 3rd speaker to swap with me
that was fine with me
and fine with her (marina) because she has had no debating experience whatsoever
then again, neither has samantha or the other girl. well, the other girl lucy has done ONE debate
but that's it
and their last debate didnt' go too well
and did you know that originally they had about 10-15 people on their TEAM?!
YEAH I KNOW!!
now they're down to 3...
well we s tarted with 7 and now we're also down to 4. but jeni's like permanent chairperson/timekeeper cause she usually can't spare enough time to do an actual speech. which is finew ith us because she's a really really big help with arguments and prep before the actual debate. so it's all GOOD!
my gosh. this is the crappest blog ever
i must say.
shit ass.
stupid
stupid
yeah guys i'm quite uninspired atm
aaaah so much hw =) i guess i ought to go study now.
maybe i'll think of somehting ingenius and write about that
like andy's blue speech =)
for those who haven't heard his blue speech. ask him :D

Some things are best kept secret

A polite society
where everybody apologises for little things
where people lie to make others happy
where people keep secrets to avoid hurting somebody

that's our society
we ARE a polite society by those standards
we're certainly much more polite than the society of america, for instance. they don't apologise for every little thing!
and that part about lying to make others happy?
well, don't you agree?
i mean, when have you told a simple white lie to make someone happy about themselves?
when you've told somebody that you like their shoes, when really, they're the most hideous things in the world!
yeah. that's what i'm talking about when i mention these white lies told to make someone happy

the last thing?
oh yeah, keeping a secret to make someone happy
this is because some things ARE best kept quiet
sometimes the best idea is to keep someone ignorant of something
because if they happen to find out
they'll get hurt
badly hurt
they'll go and feel guilty and cry and cry and cry and cry.
or they'll go do something stupid like kill themselves because they think that they've just gone and hurt you. and you told them that they did.
great work, you
what i mean is, well maybe sometimes if somebody doesn't know something. and it really woudln't make a difference to their lives if they didn't know about it, then maybe you shouldn't tell them?
because all that it would achieve is causing that hurt that you initially avoided by NOT telling them.
but then BECAUSE you told them, they were hurt. and you don't even realise because you think that you're telling the truth and revealing the truth after hiding behind that white lie for so long.
so, weigh things up before you decide whether to reveal, or keep quiet
because sometimes
some things are just best kept secret.
some secrets are simply not meant to be broadcasted for the world to have access to. because you may end up causing more harm than you intended to by revealing a truth.
because, as chain reactions go, more and more people will find out, and the person you've revealed the secret to gets even more hurt b ceause everybody is either feeling sorry for them, or offering to bash you up for saying the things you did. when really, all you meant to do was tell the truth.
maybe reveal a truth...privately? sure, the person might want to know, but they woudln't know what they're getting themselves into, now would they? so... the best idea would be to either tell them in private, or not tell them at all.

i'm sorry that life's so twisted and confusing.
it's okay, we all fall for these potholes that are lining our paths

I WANT TO GO TO ADELAIDE TO GET SCHOLARSHIP

[b]a.[/b] says:
are you going to harvard? -_-

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
yep

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
.

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
on full scholarship

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
.

[b]a.[/b] says:
....are you bullshitting?

[b]a.[/b] says:
O_O

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
no..?

[b]a.[/b] says:
HOLY SHIT

[b]a.[/b] says:
HARVARD?

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
why would i?

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
yeah

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
yep

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
see?

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
knew you'd be impressed

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
on FULL shcolarship!

[b]a.[/b] says:
holy shit

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
can you b elive it?

[b]a.[/b] says:
OMG howd you get it?

[b]a.[/b] says:
WTH

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
well

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
they did

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
this

[b]a.[/b] says:
FULL SCHOLARSHIP

[b]a.[/b] says:
O_O

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
entrance exam thing at my school

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
like

[b]a.[/b] says:
yeah,

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
it was kinda

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
promoting it thing

[b]a.[/b] says:
yeahm,

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
and they were giving aw a ysome small scholarship

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
to like

[b]a.[/b] says:
wow....you adelaidians have something we dont

[b]a.[/b] says:
O_O

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
hgihest achievers

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
and

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
yeaaaaah

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
=D

[b]a.[/b] says:
ROFL

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
your little cousin did it

[b]a.[/b] says:
I WANT TO GO TO ADELAIDE TO GET SCHOLARSHIP

[b]a.[/b] says:
thats bullshit!

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says
:aaaaaaaahahaha LOL

[b]a.[/b] says:
D: WHY YOUR SCHOOL

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
because we're an international school

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
because we're renowned all over the world?

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
=D

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
but yeah

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
hmm

[b]a.[/b] says:
fuck

[b]a.[/b] says:
==" our school

[b]a.[/b] says:
is like a shitHOLE

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
yeah i know

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
ii know

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
oh HEY

[b]a.[/b] says:
its bullshit!

[b]a.[/b] says:
but yeah

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
ANTHONY GUESS WHAT

[b]a.[/b] says:
congrats

[b]a.[/b] says:
yeah/

[b]a.[/b] says:
?

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
GUESS WHAAAAAT?

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
your'e the first person to fall for it

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
and i'm surprised that it actually worked

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
.

[b]a.[/b] says:
oh...

[b]a.[/b] says:
my..

[b]a.[/b] says:
god..

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
because i didn't mean to fool anyone

[b]a.[/b] says:
YOU BITCH

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
i just LIKE the way those words sound

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
beacuse

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
i read them in a book

[b]a.[/b] says:
YOURE A STUPID BITCH!

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
and was like WOW

[b]a.[/b] says:
LMAO

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
so i decided to put i tup there

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
and

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
AAHAHAHAHA

[b]a.[/b] says:
WOW im so gulliable!~

[b]a.[/b] says:
LMAO

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
SO CLEARLY i'm not the only one

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
YES YOU ARE

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
OMGSH LOL!!

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
when you wer elike

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
RELASLY?

[b]a.[/b] says:
>_> EAT SHIT

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
AAHAHAHAHAHA

Awesome =) Harvard. On full scholarship. says:
GAAHH KILLING SELF WITH LAUGHTER

[b]a.[/b] says:
== EAT SHIT

[b]a.[/b] says:
LMAO

~ yeah i love my cousin =) the noob of the family

he lives in melbourne, btw =) AAHAHAHAHAHA

i didn't meeeean tooo!

aminor^7

LOL.
that is all i can say.
laughing out loud.
GAAHAHAHAHA =)
dani..it's AMMINORR
cause we all love aminors =)
especially for their raised 7ths =P

peter came up with it
andy agreed with it
dani just added to it

what is this?

Harvard. On full scholarship.

i'd love to be able to say that.
or something like
The Norwood Morialta High School. On FULL scholarship.
or
International Baccalaureate. On full scholarhip. TO SENIOR YEARS!
aha. yeah yeah keep dreaming
i know
but i read that in a Jodi Picoult book and it just caught my eye because it's so...WOW
like, if i said that to you, or something like
Adelaide University. Bachelor of Psychology. On full scholarship. (btw i don't know if that'd work...)
you'd be like WOW
or or
if you said to me
UniSA. Bachelor of Medicine. On full scholarship.
i'd be like WOW
see?
see how those few words "On full scholarship", paired with the name of a presitgious school or uni or college can make the listener immediately admire you and go WOW?
that's just awesome..
btw i'd like to go to COOlleege (american accent =D)
in england
or boarding school in england
just hope i don't come back snobby like in wild child :D
btw that's a really good movie, that one =)
ahh my dreams. chances of them coming true aren't very high, but i can dream, can't i?
woudln't mind going on a long-term exchange like that if i get to go to college in england. or america =)
although england is so totally a first preferance
no offence to any all americans out there
but yes. i aim high. i always do.
hmmm

oh btw this is for matt:
sink or swim.
well i choooooose SWIIIM!!! only cause i can =)

ms neale

aha LOL
well for all of you who were there this morning in the library when that lady came to talk to us, you would know what im talking about. you know...matt, andy, katrina, weetyr
forgive me if i forgot someone =)
but yeah
ms neale was saying how it's great to be able to read because it can be an escape
when you're feeling all stressed and uptight, you sit down and read. it relaxes you and it pushes most of your troubles away.
but then, they're always there waiting for you to deal with them when you're back in the real world. but the point is that you get those few minutes (hours) when you feel light and carefree; when you can escape into another world.
basically the ambassador lady for the premier's reading challenge (we were like the only year 10s among a bunch of year 8s) w as saying that reading is good for these reasons:
-opens up a whole new world (i was so tempted to start singing there)
-improves vocab/knowledge
-provides an escape
all too true, guys
tis all too true.
well last night i had a ton of hw to do because i hadn't been doing work for about 3 nights in a row...
and i HAD to finish my jodi picoult book "Harvesting the Heart" becausei wanted to know how it all ended and because it's a really addictive book
so i thought, okay i'll read for about 10 mins, then practice piano, then clarinet, then HOMEWORK!
so i sat down to read
...
but 10 mins turned into and hour
>__>
then i went OMGSH ONLY HAVE AN HOUR LEFT TIL BEDTIME!
so i prioritised and did hw first
ie. my Science of the Mind poster. which was due today. so i spent like 2 hours on that. got into bed an hour after bedtime...the reason it took so longw as beacuse i got a bit sidetracked whilst getting coloured pencils. i went on msn. BIG MISTAKE!
anyway so i finisehd that
died
then woke up this morning
and remembered music test
oh well
then
then
I REMEMBERED THAT MS GALIPO WAS GIVING US THE LESSON TO FINISH POSTERS >__>
i felt so dumb.

but yes that's my story
moral of that long-winded story:
never underestimate how good a book is. oh and don't set yourself time limits when reading. like, don't force yourself to read within a time frame. cause it kills you when you realise that 10 mins has turned into 3 hours...=)

ms hannay

so she said something kind of inspriing today
yeah i know
never thought you'd see the day when i would ta ke something from her
WELL I DID
today
she was saying how when i speed up i trip up
well she was talking about my piano-ing
but i was thinknig about somehting else
i was thinking about my life
you know, life
like
LIFE in general
and it's true
because when you try to speed things up. you trip. over. and fall. and crahs and burn. and when youget back up, you have to start slow again. but yes, eventually you DO end up speeding up. stupid ms hannay >__>
well yes i just thought that i'd put that there
because...it's true!
you speed up, you try to get more things done faster. and you end up tripping
because it's just not natural to be doing things at that speed, in that..BULK SIZE!
so why do people (ie me) keep going it?
because we think that if we're able to do things that much fas ter, we'd please more people and get more things done within the time span of our lives.
well, that's how i see it
dunno about other burner-outers but that's how I see it.
because...well that's just how i see it. i have no more because-s

wow. writing about stuff ms hannay says
O_O"
startling much?
what has this world come to?

traitor

so we debated against eyensbury last night
and we won =)
and GUESS WHO WAS ON THEIR TEAM?
AMY ROWE!
YEAAH HER!!
yeah the one who left our school to go to eyensbury
and to debate on their team
but it's okay bcause i think their team was a bi t green
we won by 3 whole points
for you noobs who dont' know, in debating, 3 points is mASSIVE. like. MA SSIVE. it's about the same a s 3 goals in soccer. yeah that's right. even i know that that's quite a big gap. so we WON. ahaha they came up with some awesomely (cough) hilarous rebuttals. shall fill you in in person. i can do an awesome imitation of them. ask me when you next see me =)
but yeah
they did well. they kind of wer e able to rebut us. just not too well.
but yeah
we WON =)
winning streak still going
and WHOOOOO DOUBTED USSSS??? *glare at andy*

achievement for the year

yeah that's right.
i SHOWERED AT SCHOOL
BEAT THAT!!
yeah that's right.
i.
showered.
at.
school.
yeah naked. duh >__>
how else do you shower?
yes i showered NAKED at SCHOOL
beat. that.
yeah stupid cycling class. hate that lady.
all sweaty and icky-feeling.
so what do you do?
YOU GO HAVE A SHOWER!
where can you shower when away from home...?
AT SCHOOOL!!
yeah ashleigh showered with me
no wait
she didn't shower WITH me
she showered at the same time as me
in the cubicle NEXT to me
because she was the only other person in the WHOLE DAMN CLASS who had the guts to shower
cause everyone else would rather be all yucky for the whole day than ruin their stupid straightened hair.
so in your face
i felt NICE for the WHOLE DAY
WHILE YOU WERE ALL UNCOMFORTABLE AND ICKY!
it was so worth it
and i would so do it again
bring it =)

the better link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RPH3EmYTTTI
this is a clearer ver sion
except the first version has lyrics
oh well =)

beauty

i saw beauty today
it was so touching
it was the truth
it was sad, happy, funny...so true
so incredibly true
mother's day presentation by tn
it was so touching
it was so touching
i nearly cried
i only didn't cry because i know how long it takes for me to look "normal" after crying". yeah according to peter it takes me AGES to look normal again.
anyway

not only was it set to a beautiful song, sung by beautiful people with BEAUTIFUL harmonies
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=14aqxjJlDDw
it was beautiful
the whole scenery

first image:
mother with baby and little child walks out. her two older kids run up to her and hug her.

second image:
school-age child. mother lets go for the first time, lets him go to school!

third image:
mother chasing teenage boy around. yelling and screaming at him. he is angry and throws off his khan quang. he leaves his mother. she's left broken. he returns to her...

fourth image:
trung (aaha) interstate. calling mother on the phone, vows to leave his career and come home to his mother.

all the while, the candle people dancing around everyone. circling mother and child. protecting them. showing the pain of the mother. showing the distance between the mother and child.

i loved it
i can't describe any more of it. you had to be there
and pe ter's speech
='(

"on mothers' day today, do you have anything you want to share with your mum? a meal with something yummy for her to eat? a surprise present with something that she will treasure and love forever?"

ima cry now.
happy mothers' day =)

don't tell me to calm down!

don't. just don't. okay? just. don't.
sometimes you have to let people say what they have to say
without reminding them to shut up
maybe
it helps
if you jsut shut up and listen
listen.
it's all about listening and responding
so says mr dama
so shut up and just lis ten
and dnot' tell me to calm down!!
i will calm down when i'm ready. okay?

time passes and people change

there was a time. long ago. when i worked hard to please other people. i worked really hard at everything, whether it was swimming, or viet or just SCHOOL. i did it for my parents. i did it to please my teachers. i did it to set a good example for my brothers. i did it to defy my cousins who looked way down on me.
but something changed. somewhere around the middle of year 9. when i realised that it was completley pointless to be working so hard for other people. why? because what difference does it make to them if i fail? what difference does it make to them if i become the most successful person in the world? NONE. that's right boys and girls, the answer is NONE.
my parents stopped ca ring about my schoolwork. they just assumed that i would be alwasy doing well. aha. how wrong people can be. well, i stopped working for THEM because they stopped caring whenever i did somehting right. whenever i did really really well for a maths test or something. they'd jsut ask..were you the top of hte class? well NO. ...not good enough yen. try ahrder next time. and you know wath? it's really really frustrating when it seems as though NOTHING that you do is good enough for people. clearly i wasn't good enough for them.
teachers? well i have no idea why i did this but i used to be nice ot eachers. because they would be nice back. WRONG. WRONG WRONG WRONG! absolutely incorrect. sorry honey but you FAILED aGAIN. why? because that is a very common misconception. you treat teachers nicely they still treat you like shit. you be nice and smile at them and the vast majority of them will go on to pick on your bad points. take mr. clements for example. i try to be nice to him. i try to be polite to him. evne though i'm seething inside. and you know what i get back? i get a load of CRAP in return. he gives me shit. for everything. it's as if this thing called RESPECT is a one way road. aha. yeah you thought WRONG. WRONG. because they're older. because they've seen more of life. OH YEAH? well maybe you've LIVED longer, but do you live at the SPEED thta we do? have you experienced that RUSH of intensity at which life flashes by for us? have you ever overworked yourself because you have to keep up with this LIFE. this CONSTANT fight for peace. this constant fight for LIFE. you can't stay alive in this world, these days withouth being able to conquer this whole...speed change thing. another personw ould be mr z. TIMES HAVE CHANGED GUYS! times have changed. you can't keep the old ways forever. the old ways of this stupid peking system. it's called mistreatment. it's called inequality. it's called ASIANS ARE HUMANS TOO! GIRLS ARE HUMANS TOO! you stupid racist. sexist people out there in the world.
who else? oh yeah. my stupid family who looked down on me. why? becaues they thought that i was...i don't even know. i don't even know. it's so stupid because they all used to think that i was sthis stuck up li ttle girl. they ha ted me. they still do! well the vast majority of them. no wait. just the three of them. aahaa for the firs ttime in...years, lan chi actually came up to me and talked to me on sunday! that's like..that is a leap. a bound. for her it is. she's never really cared about me.a nd whenever i had achieved something, she'd be all "OH YEAH WELL DONE!" kind of hting. but with a sarcastic air about her. with that look of contempt that means i hate you yen i love all my other BOY cousins so much more bceause...well i never found out why. i don't particularly care anymore. because why? because screw her. her and her sisters. i mean i dont' evne know why they're so..they look down on me so much. they don't treat vien nam phong phi like they treat me. maybe because i'm a girl. but that's stupid becaus THEY"RE girls too. so i don't see the logic in this at all. none whatsoever. i used to want to work really really hard to prove to them that i'm not nothing. but it's just not worth it anymore
nowadays i work hard for me. for my own future, for my own dreams. i work hard because I want to. not because i want other people to like me becaus ei'm smart. no i work for me. and when i fail. i know WHY i fail. i may bitch about stupid teachers and stuff, but deep down i do know why i do it wrong. i know that i do it all wrong because of ME. i t's my fault. i'm the only one i can blame and that's what i do. i work harder next time. and make the right choices. in my book, for what i want to achieve, a C is just not good enough. in fact, it's shit. okay danielle? you think you've got it hard? put yourself into my shoes for a moment, honey. p lease do. just th ink about it for ONE second. i dont' want to be up myself (although all my blogs seem that way) but dani youv'e got it easy. your life is a freaking picnic compared to mine. IB are not going to be impressed with a fucking C. for science! FOR SCIENCE! for science. okay so it's only ONE piece of work. but it just happens to be the ONE piece that i'm sending FUCKING OVERSEAS! of all the pi eces of work i could have stuffed up. it had to be this one. it HAD to be this one. why? because i hate real world science. i hate this shit about electricity and TECHNOLOGY. i can't even work a freaking computer properly. and you expect me to LOVE learning about them?! i would prefer a pencil pen paper BOOK to a freaking fast "awesome" new fast internet connectsion ANY DAY. A N Y FUCKING DAY. no matter how fas t i need to work, no matter how NEAT i need it to be. i'd do it by hand. a ny day. overseas. sending. shit. work. not good enough yen. *smacks head* wake up babe. wake. up. this is for YOU. i'm fighting for YOU now babe. wake up and work with me.
....i'm going to get this guys. give me some time. and i WILL screw IB over. i will.

the power of the written word

The Book Thief talks a lot about the power of words
bcause it's words that pretty much carries out the story (well..DUH)
okay please disregard the above statement
you'll get what imean once you've read the book...*hint hint*
but don't you agree?
i mean, without words, we are powerless. without a way of expressing what we really think
and feel
so why do people take it for granted?
i mean, i, for one, talk a lot.
but there are people out there who have words at their disposal, but they choose not to use them
even worse, there are people who are simply just seen and not heard. because people around them lack that empathy...and...mercy to listen to them. there are people who think that they're on top of the world, because maybe they have more words. because they abuse and misuse words. and they choose not to listen to those who are trying to make use of their own power.
so words are power..right?
not necessarily.
if you know how to choose the right words, when and where ot use them, then you can be powerful. but only if and when you know how to use them
a person who just raves on about...crap would not be all that powerful, even if htey talk a LOT
then again, a person who talks "nicely" but at the pain of others...that's even worse
the best personw ould be someone who knows how to use words. not to manipulate others, but to speak their mind. at the right times.

oh how i wish i could be like that.
i wish i had the ability to not only speak in public, but speak in the most appropriate way in public. and convey the messages that i would like to.
there are so many things to be said
so many words to write
and i would say them. i would write them. but who's going ot listen? who's going to readwhat i write?
what use is the power of the words if i
a) don't know how to use them
or
b) don't get heard by those i would like to listen.

you can listen. but do you hear?
can you pick out the words of pain, the expressions of struggle amongst the rest of the "cheerful" person's words?
i'm sure you can't
becaus eyou don't understand words
beacuse you can't listen out for the right words, in the right context
i can only dream to be taht great with words
i can only dream.

how many of us can truthfully say that we listen and HEAR what the words are screaming out at us?
not many...
so, my message is this:
don't take advantage of your power. just because you can talk doesn't mean that you shoudl abuse that ability. keep an ear open for those in pain. listen. hear. help. reach out to those who are in need of support. don't ever deem anything unimportant, because one day it'll catch up to you.

it's true.
so i'm working on this; working on my words.
working towards...well towarsd being able to use the right words. at the right times.
and maybe not talk as much. because it seems selfish that i'm here talkingSO much while there are people out there in the world whose words are not being heard at all. hence (for all those who remember) i did my silent protest last yaer.
that was hell.
it was painful.
and i don't think it had a big enough impact.
hmmm ima th inking about this one now.
maybe.

but please don't abuse your power. you ahve the power to speak and write what you feel. you have the power of the free words. don't abuse it

misleading

i find the term "frozen yoghurt" rat her misleading
beacuse i really doubt that the yummy cold stuff that i'm eating atm is frozen YOGHURT
i mean
for all i know it could just be normal ice cream
but the box says that it's "frozen yoghurt"
which i really do'nt htink that's what it is
because i've frozen yoghurt before.
iv'e stuck yoghurt in the freezer
and it turns out nothing like this
this stuff is like
soft and creamy like ice cream
and real frozen yoghurt
is...
hard.
and s olid
and ...fun to eat =)
this stuff is just really soft
and squishy
soo could someone please tell me?
like
how do they make it this squishy?
or is it simply just NOT yoghurt at all?
and htey're false-advertising?

100th!

yeah this is number 100.
how sad
i've posted 100 blogs
and that is really sad
60+ of them being in the last 2 months
which just shows how great i am at NOT procrastinating
clearly i'm just so...
procrastinating
and yeah..
but lately i just haven't had enough time to be blogging as often as i have been for the past couple of months. i guess the work is finally catching up to me
but good news, guys!
i'mactually doing MATHS work during maths lessons!
yeah an di have been since the beginning of this term because i realied that there are actually a lot of things that i don't understand because i don't really pay attention in maths
although, i still do homework during maths if i really have to
but i've learnt form weetyr to not skip too many maths lessons
or your grades will suffer. badly. so yeah
sorry to use you as an example, weetyr, but you HAVE been missing a lot of lessons, and i can imagine how much stuff you just dont' understna.d because i've been going to lessons and paying attention an di've realised how much i really would have missed if i hadn't gone to the lessons

phew.
well i did have a thought to write about
but it kinda went missing. which is really stupid because all i remember about it is that it was as really brilliant thought.
but yeah guys, read THE BOOK THIEF by Markus Zusak
it's one of THE best books in the world. and i'm not exaggerating. it's like
...it's not the fastest read in the world, but that's best it is full of..bits.
like
it's juicy. it's full of informatin that you need to slow down to absorb
btw "juicy" is a shit-ass word to use. for want of a better word!
you have to read it slowly to savour every bit of it
that's how good it is
it's like
when i'm reading it
i'm thinking....i wish i could remember this sentence
or "i wish i could remember everything this girl says"
why? because then i could use it in future reference
but, as humans go, you just can't remember that many things
no amtter how inspiring they are to you.
you just can't
human brain DOES have the capacity.
human memory does not.
well it does.
just that it will only be committed to long-term memory through rehearsal
and i dont'think i'd have the time...to rehearse every single line that i woud like to retain in my memory.
i dont' think i'd even remember all of them to rehearse!
well that was a stupid ramble-on about nothing too important
but yes. DO read the book thief
...it's beautiful =)
it's about a girtl
who falls in love with books
like..she accidentally learns how to read (this is set during Nazi Germany) and she discovers a love for books
and she basically just devours them all
but she has to ...
alright
fine i'll stoop
just read the damn book
=)
yea a pretty crap 100th blog.
sorry guys.
brain overflowed with schoolwork atm
will work on it
oh
tip for today
(and most likely for a while. cause i really LIKE this tip)
keep your chin up
n omatter what
smile
show that you ahve strength to deal withwhateer life throws at you
it's not life that's shit
it's the way you deal with life that's shit
so stick it =)
remember: chin UP