self esteem

well anyways
to continue with my hair story..
(WOW it's been TWO WHOLE days since my last blog. wow. something's up wtih me?)
anyways
the guy was like tome
oh yeah i'll just re-layer your hair, and then straighten it, and hten you'll be pretty =D, as long as your friends tell you look good, it's all good, hey?
and i'm like...err...yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, but don't re-layer it? O_O_O_O_O
well gee. that clearly did a lot for my self esteem. cause you know, because my hair had grown out of shape and it wasn't straihgtned then I WASNT PRETTY! well i got back at him and wa slike chyeah i really do'nt want my hair to be relayered. be cause i'm growing it out, you see. i want m yhair tobe like it was at the beginning o fyear 8...siiiiiighhhh
then he was like oh yeah that's cool
and then i was like >____>
clearly he was putting across the message that:
a) i wasn't gonna be pretty unless i had my hair straightneed and completley fully asian TB layered (eeeww)
and
b) what my friends think of how i look is all that really matters to me

well that's not true
sure, it's great to get compliments from friends and other people, but you know, i really do'nt give a c rap if someone came up to me and was like
err your hair looks shit today. who cut it?
because it's MY hair and it's mY body and it's MY look. not YOURS.
and this guy was going around, clealry promoting the idea that appearance is really important
clealry he assumed that i went to get my hair cut becaus ei wanted to be "pretty"
nono, see, the only reason i was getting my hair cut was because my fringe was ge tting ridiculously long. but then now it's like 3cm long >__>
which is just stupid
because the whole point of me going to get a haircut was because i wanted a shorter fringe. now it's practically not even there. which is gay. and before my haircut, i LIKED the length of my hair. an dthe thickness. because it was starting to look like it did BEFORE igot it all cut off. but THEN the guy cut it again. and the top layer is back to hte length where it is short enough to be annoying and sticking up all over the place, but long enuogh to like, kick out eveyrwhere. which is really gay because i had JUST grown it past the length where it's like a bird's nest when i wake up. and i'm going to camp tomorrow. which is jsut great because at ca mp the population of mirrors is like...1.
and the TIME in which i would have to wash my hair before anyone sees it or DO something about it being all kinky and all over the place is like 2 seconds.
so. that's great.
so i have start ed to wear headbands agaiN! yay!
seriously i wore one for the firstt ime yesterday since...err since like year 6?
no wait
WHOA
i actually
no
since yaer...4
O_O
my goodness.
wow LOL cause ba ck then my hair was either too long and didnt' need a headband cause i could jsut tie it up, or i ha d a f ringe and didn't like putting on headbands over fringes.
well i just can't wait utnil my hair is long and thick and EVEN enough to braid it again =) hey guys remember that time in year 8 when i went through a pha s e and braided my hair every single day, and one day i spent like 5 hours ont it an di had ...9 i think braids
and it looked really AWESOME :D
anyways
my hair will grow out
...
so yeah dont' let me cut it again
utnil my birthday this year
which is in like 5 months. so hopefully by then it'll be long again =)
and then yeah
screw my fringe
i thin i'm over my fringe now >__>
LOL i can just do something, maybe le tit grow out again and yeha. wlel i guess i could have it there and only wear it as a fringe whenever i feel like it. otherwise it'll just be like. part of my hair...
oooooookay that was weird
but yeah
hmm fringe would look nice right about NOW
like a fringe that is longer than bloody 3 cm >__>
anyways i"M ALL PACKED FOR CAAAMP!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
=D