You are my opponent, but not my enemy, for your resistance gives me strength. Your will gives me courage. Your spirit ennobles me. And, although I aim to defeat you, should I succeed, I will not humiliate you, instead I will honour you..For without you, I am a lesser man.
sorry guys.
uninpsired =(
Thursday, April 30, 2009
change of URL
well, this question was asked by many back when...well back when i had first changed my URL
and i didn't really give a proper answer
so i thought that i ought to answer it soone ror later
it just happens to be a bit later...
anyway
so it went from gia-yenlovesyou
to...forevergia-yen
why?
well because gia-yenlovesyou is a TAD misleading to people who i dont' even know who read my blogs
or those who i may not ac utally LOVE but are reading my blogs anyway because i am such an awesome writer =)
well anyways
the reason it is now FOREVERgia-yen
is be cause no matter what
i will always be me
no matter who comes aslong and tries to change me with whatever
i will always be me
although the world will change
i will strive to remain me
for ever
did that make any sense at all?
because it makes sense in my head
and it seemed fairly reasonable at the time
because i was thinking about how people change
things change
friendships change
so i thought that if I didn't chang etoo much then maybe the world won't change as much?
i dunnno
dont' ask again please
that's the best answer i can try to give you
and i didn't really give a proper answer
so i thought that i ought to answer it soone ror later
it just happens to be a bit later...
anyway
so it went from gia-yenlovesyou
to...forevergia-yen
why?
well because gia-yenlovesyou is a TAD misleading to people who i dont' even know who read my blogs
or those who i may not ac utally LOVE but are reading my blogs anyway because i am such an awesome writer =)
well anyways
the reason it is now FOREVERgia-yen
is be cause no matter what
i will always be me
no matter who comes aslong and tries to change me with whatever
i will always be me
although the world will change
i will strive to remain me
for ever
did that make any sense at all?
because it makes sense in my head
and it seemed fairly reasonable at the time
because i was thinking about how people change
things change
friendships change
so i thought that if I didn't chang etoo much then maybe the world won't change as much?
i dunnno
dont' ask again please
that's the best answer i can try to give you
Monday, April 27, 2009
ch-ch-ch-challenge
it's hard.
in fact, it's a lot harder than i thought
or expected
you know, when i said to myself
im going to be just like jamie sullivan
and not care about what people think
what do you know
well, i think i was doing pretty well today
cause, well yeah i didn't do anything specifically for people to see me better
well, not that i am conscious of
and i resisted the urge to give in at the SRC meeting because i know that if i keep going against the grain i'm going to be hated
so..i don't really know what i ought to do
ebcause yet again this is another challenge
this is another challenge of my life
and i'm going to fight it
right?
well so why is it suddenly so hard?
because there are so many poeple agaisnt me
and there are so many things that i know that i WANT to do
but can't find the courage to do so
it's a chchcchhchchchCHALLENGE
dam nright
there are SO many things
that i want to do
the things that i wa nt to say to people
i plan everything out in my head
but i just can' t bring myself to do so
because yet a gain
i'm thinking about what people will say to me
what people will say ABOUT me
and i know that i'm trying to be like jamie sullivan =)
and not care about what htey say
but i just CAN"T
well
i can
i'm doing well
i think
but there are too many times in a day when i regret NOT asying something, or NOT doing something because i was scared of what people will say
and think
but
why
WHY can i not do it?
it's just anothe rblood mountain
that's all
that is ALL
so why can't i climb this one?
far out.
i guess that all i can do right now
is put one foot in front of the other
and
live to the full
so i don't go home every day regretting something
yeah yeah
i know
i KNOW
i've been meaning to live like this for so long
soo
why can't i DO IT?
freaking hell.
ugh i think i'm hating myself for being so weak
but i'm not going to say that
because it's so...self..KILLING
idunno if that's how to say it
but it's like killing my own self esteem
i'm working on it
i need to get on top of my game
seriously
i need to play it the best way possible
on TOP of my game
my goal for this term: get back on top of my game
mastermind how i'm going to achieve everything thati want to.
that's a LOT of things that i want to achieve at the moment
in fact, it's a lot harder than i thought
or expected
you know, when i said to myself
im going to be just like jamie sullivan
and not care about what people think
what do you know
well, i think i was doing pretty well today
cause, well yeah i didn't do anything specifically for people to see me better
well, not that i am conscious of
and i resisted the urge to give in at the SRC meeting because i know that if i keep going against the grain i'm going to be hated
so..i don't really know what i ought to do
ebcause yet again this is another challenge
this is another challenge of my life
and i'm going to fight it
right?
well so why is it suddenly so hard?
because there are so many poeple agaisnt me
and there are so many things that i know that i WANT to do
but can't find the courage to do so
it's a chchcchhchchchCHALLENGE
dam nright
there are SO many things
that i want to do
the things that i wa nt to say to people
i plan everything out in my head
but i just can' t bring myself to do so
because yet a gain
i'm thinking about what people will say to me
what people will say ABOUT me
and i know that i'm trying to be like jamie sullivan =)
and not care about what htey say
but i just CAN"T
well
i can
i'm doing well
i think
but there are too many times in a day when i regret NOT asying something, or NOT doing something because i was scared of what people will say
and think
but
why
WHY can i not do it?
it's just anothe rblood mountain
that's all
that is ALL
so why can't i climb this one?
far out.
i guess that all i can do right now
is put one foot in front of the other
and
live to the full
so i don't go home every day regretting something
yeah yeah
i know
i KNOW
i've been meaning to live like this for so long
soo
why can't i DO IT?
freaking hell.
ugh i think i'm hating myself for being so weak
but i'm not going to say that
because it's so...self..KILLING
idunno if that's how to say it
but it's like killing my own self esteem
i'm working on it
i need to get on top of my game
seriously
i need to play it the best way possible
on TOP of my game
my goal for this term: get back on top of my game
mastermind how i'm going to achieve everything thati want to.
that's a LOT of things that i want to achieve at the moment
Sunday, April 26, 2009
mandy moore said that
"A smile is so sexy, yet so warm. When someone genuinely smiles at you, it's the greatest feeling in the world." quoted in Woman's World (12-6-2005)
yep =)
so true
another, the taglines for "A Walk to Remember":
Love is like the wind. You cannot see it but you can always feel it.
Find out who you are and do it on purpose.
It all comes down to who's by your side.
She didn't belong. She was misunderstood. And she would change him forever.
Take a risk. Dare to move. Love is a leap of faith.
There's more to attraction than meets the eye.
yep =)
so true
another, the taglines for "A Walk to Remember":
Love is like the wind. You cannot see it but you can always feel it.
Find out who you are and do it on purpose.
It all comes down to who's by your side.
She didn't belong. She was misunderstood. And she would change him forever.
Take a risk. Dare to move. Love is a leap of faith.
There's more to attraction than meets the eye.
THE INVITATION by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesnt' interest me what you do for a living.
i want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow. If you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayel and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'Yes.'
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. i want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments
Beautiful. Truly beautifully inspiring. YENspiring ;)
i want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow. If you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayel and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'Yes.'
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. i want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments
Beautiful. Truly beautifully inspiring. YENspiring ;)
when i grow up i wanna be just like jamie sullivan =)
jamie sullivan
i love her.
seriously..if you don't know who she is...go and read someone else's blog and STAY AW AY FROM MINE! nah..just google her =)
anyway
so i wanna be like her
why? because she does NOT care wha tpeopel thinka bout her
and what people say about her
she does not give a c rap
she goes about life
doing what she wants
but helping others
she thinks so much about others that she doesnt' care what people think and how she looks, even
because she loves to omuch
she has way too much love
but why do I wana be like HER?
mainly because she does not care
she does not care about what others think of her, and what others will DO to her
because she has her faith
she has her love
she has her family, no matter how small
she may not have many friends, but sometimes, one true friend is better than lots of shallow fickle people. and that one true friend is enough
she is so GOOD
she just puts her love out whereve it is needed, REGARDLESS of where that place is
or WHO needs it
she reaches out to those in need, especially when others can't or won't
she..is so perfect in her own way
and you all know how much i HATE it when the word PERFECT is placed in the same sentence as someone's name
but this is the one instant where it is true
i wanna be like her
because i want to be able to depend completely on my faith
you know the thing called the..leap of faith?
yeah i wanna take that leap
i want to be able to just jump and know that God's there for me
i want to be like her because i want to NOT care about what other people think of me
i know everyone says that
everyone says "i don't give a c rap about what people think"
okay, who says that the most? hmm
so far, i think that it's Peter
okay, yes it IS peter
he is constnatly saying that he doesnt care what people think
and so am i
i thikn it SO often
whenever i get hurt
whenever i feel insecure
i say to myself
chin up yen. fuck them. who cares what they think. because you are your own rock. depend on your self
i'm posticive that everyone thinks along those lines when they're frustrated and insecure
but think about it
if you didn't care about what people think, why are you trying so hard to impress them?
i must admit
that i try RELALY REALLY hard to impress people
especially in the field of edcuation
ui want people to see
to KNOW that i can be great
i want them to see my potential (however little) and want to take me out and then nurture my skills until i become the person i apsire to be
i want to impress people with my intelligence
but then i know
that it all comes down to how I see myself
but then why do i keep working so hard?
yeah even this whole conquerin IB thing goes against my whole concept of not caring about what people think
why ? because iti's HUMAN INSTINCT to follow the crowd. yeah i know what you're thinking: "no wonder it's always been so easy to be a sheep and so hard to break away form the c rowd"
yeah so it's normal to wantto be a sheep
but the way i see it, and the way that Jamie Sullivan sees it
is that it's w eak to follow the crowd
be your own person
you don't need to follow the crowd to be a great, successful person
you dont have to follow the stereotype to be rich
come on, seriously i HATE the asian stereotype of becominga doctor or a pharmacist. or whatever. just because "my parents want me to"
well, okay. sure its good that you're considering what your parents think, but okay in the end it comes down to YOU. it'sYOUR life so why be a sheep and follow the stereotpye? i know why. because it's easy. because you kwno your'e smart because you got a high TER because you're aaasian. okay that's racist, but it's how people will think. trust me. i know a guy. Thien. he's asian. he's smart. he's doing med. i don't mean to say that he's a sheep because i KNOW that he's doing med because he WANT S to. not because he's asian. not because his parents said so. although they may have told him that they would LIKE him to do med (i'm acutally nots ure of any of this..) the main rea son that he's donig it is because he WANTS to. see the difference?
and yes there DEFINITELY is a difference
between being a sheep
and being your own self and not caring what people think
yes i know you say it to yoursefl all of the time
but i also know, wihtout needing to KNOW you, that you sitll do it
because it's HUMAN INSTINCT like i said before
that's why we girls go out there
and buy push-up bras
or really really tight-fitting t-shirts
and skinny jeans
because it's the fashion
because it makes you look aesthetically pleasing
it makes you FEEL (!??!) good.
because you care about what people think
that's why you do it
sorry, but it's the truth girls
true it's the fashion
true everyone else is wea ring it
BUT BY SAYING THAT YOU ARE BEING A SHEEP!
okay i do it too
yes i do own skinny jeans
and yes i like them =)
but one of these days i would like to be able to get up and wears something
wihtout thinking about hwo i would look in it
and wihtouth thinking about how good people would think i look because of what i'm wearing
and i would like to go out
wihtout caring \way too much about my hair
i would like to be able to say truthfully
"I don't care about what people think"
because on that monumental day
that
....
that
WONDERFUL day
that
....
MOMENTUS day
in the HISTORY of my life
i will finally have conqured the pressures of s ociety
i will have finally risen above the sheep
and be my oiwn person
be strong. because one day, if you have faith, love and hope hten you will get there
soon hopefully =) so i can live the rest of my life like that
but i know that
yes im' trying
i AM
i'm trying to NOT care about what people think
but..it's hard
it is hard because it is defying nature
going against the g rain
why else do i wanan be like jamie sullivan?
i want to shamelessly help those in need
wihtout thinking of myself
i want to be completely selfless when it comes to other people (well DUH when it comes to otehr people..hwo could i be selfless when it's about ME?! omg that was so stupid >__>)
i want to help people
and i know that i wil get there one day right?
hmm but yeah
after jamie sullivan?
man even if i did all i could
even if i helped in every way imaginable,
the chances of even MATCHING jamie sullivan are incredibly...incredibly slim
forget surpassing her =)
another thing?
yeah she has such unwavering faith
i'm working on my faith too
what cha said today about being witnesses
that made me think a LOT
a LOT about jamie sullivan too
today in church i was thinking about how GOOD it felt to be back there.
back at my second home
i was only away at camp and missed mass there for...one weekend
and already it was like...wow. it felt like i had been away for an eternity
you can imagine what i'd be like after spending 2 weeks in japan!
i spend so much time at church
that after only one weekenjd away from it
i miss it so badly
maybe that's a good thing?
hhmm
i'm sure that others feel this wa ytoo
and threy' just ashamed of it
dont' be, guys
be proud of who you are, and what you love...and WHO you love =)
i'd risk looking like a fool for love =)
you should too
okay that wascompletley off the topic, but i just thought of it as i was typing
but yes. hopefully
one of these days i will be like Jamie Sullivan
but for now, i can only dream
and have faith
and work hard
Faith Hope Love
i love her.
seriously..if you don't know who she is...go and read someone else's blog and STAY AW AY FROM MINE! nah..just google her =)
anyway
so i wanna be like her
why? because she does NOT care wha tpeopel thinka bout her
and what people say about her
she does not give a c rap
she goes about life
doing what she wants
but helping others
she thinks so much about others that she doesnt' care what people think and how she looks, even
because she loves to omuch
she has way too much love
but why do I wana be like HER?
mainly because she does not care
she does not care about what others think of her, and what others will DO to her
because she has her faith
she has her love
she has her family, no matter how small
she may not have many friends, but sometimes, one true friend is better than lots of shallow fickle people. and that one true friend is enough
she is so GOOD
she just puts her love out whereve it is needed, REGARDLESS of where that place is
or WHO needs it
she reaches out to those in need, especially when others can't or won't
she..is so perfect in her own way
and you all know how much i HATE it when the word PERFECT is placed in the same sentence as someone's name
but this is the one instant where it is true
i wanna be like her
because i want to be able to depend completely on my faith
you know the thing called the..leap of faith?
yeah i wanna take that leap
i want to be able to just jump and know that God's there for me
i want to be like her because i want to NOT care about what other people think of me
i know everyone says that
everyone says "i don't give a c rap about what people think"
okay, who says that the most? hmm
so far, i think that it's Peter
okay, yes it IS peter
he is constnatly saying that he doesnt care what people think
and so am i
i thikn it SO often
whenever i get hurt
whenever i feel insecure
i say to myself
chin up yen. fuck them. who cares what they think. because you are your own rock. depend on your self
i'm posticive that everyone thinks along those lines when they're frustrated and insecure
but think about it
if you didn't care about what people think, why are you trying so hard to impress them?
i must admit
that i try RELALY REALLY hard to impress people
especially in the field of edcuation
ui want people to see
to KNOW that i can be great
i want them to see my potential (however little) and want to take me out and then nurture my skills until i become the person i apsire to be
i want to impress people with my intelligence
but then i know
that it all comes down to how I see myself
but then why do i keep working so hard?
yeah even this whole conquerin IB thing goes against my whole concept of not caring about what people think
why ? because iti's HUMAN INSTINCT to follow the crowd. yeah i know what you're thinking: "no wonder it's always been so easy to be a sheep and so hard to break away form the c rowd"
yeah so it's normal to wantto be a sheep
but the way i see it, and the way that Jamie Sullivan sees it
is that it's w eak to follow the crowd
be your own person
you don't need to follow the crowd to be a great, successful person
you dont have to follow the stereotype to be rich
come on, seriously i HATE the asian stereotype of becominga doctor or a pharmacist. or whatever. just because "my parents want me to"
well, okay. sure its good that you're considering what your parents think, but okay in the end it comes down to YOU. it'sYOUR life so why be a sheep and follow the stereotpye? i know why. because it's easy. because you kwno your'e smart because you got a high TER because you're aaasian. okay that's racist, but it's how people will think. trust me. i know a guy. Thien. he's asian. he's smart. he's doing med. i don't mean to say that he's a sheep because i KNOW that he's doing med because he WANT S to. not because he's asian. not because his parents said so. although they may have told him that they would LIKE him to do med (i'm acutally nots ure of any of this..) the main rea son that he's donig it is because he WANTS to. see the difference?
and yes there DEFINITELY is a difference
between being a sheep
and being your own self and not caring what people think
yes i know you say it to yoursefl all of the time
but i also know, wihtout needing to KNOW you, that you sitll do it
because it's HUMAN INSTINCT like i said before
that's why we girls go out there
and buy push-up bras
or really really tight-fitting t-shirts
and skinny jeans
because it's the fashion
because it makes you look aesthetically pleasing
it makes you FEEL (!??!) good.
because you care about what people think
that's why you do it
sorry, but it's the truth girls
true it's the fashion
true everyone else is wea ring it
BUT BY SAYING THAT YOU ARE BEING A SHEEP!
okay i do it too
yes i do own skinny jeans
and yes i like them =)
but one of these days i would like to be able to get up and wears something
wihtout thinking about hwo i would look in it
and wihtouth thinking about how good people would think i look because of what i'm wearing
and i would like to go out
wihtout caring \way too much about my hair
i would like to be able to say truthfully
"I don't care about what people think"
because on that monumental day
that
....
that
WONDERFUL day
that
....
MOMENTUS day
in the HISTORY of my life
i will finally have conqured the pressures of s ociety
i will have finally risen above the sheep
and be my oiwn person
be strong. because one day, if you have faith, love and hope hten you will get there
soon hopefully =) so i can live the rest of my life like that
but i know that
yes im' trying
i AM
i'm trying to NOT care about what people think
but..it's hard
it is hard because it is defying nature
going against the g rain
why else do i wanan be like jamie sullivan?
i want to shamelessly help those in need
wihtout thinking of myself
i want to be completely selfless when it comes to other people (well DUH when it comes to otehr people..hwo could i be selfless when it's about ME?! omg that was so stupid >__>)
i want to help people
and i know that i wil get there one day right?
hmm but yeah
after jamie sullivan?
man even if i did all i could
even if i helped in every way imaginable,
the chances of even MATCHING jamie sullivan are incredibly...incredibly slim
forget surpassing her =)
another thing?
yeah she has such unwavering faith
i'm working on my faith too
what cha said today about being witnesses
that made me think a LOT
a LOT about jamie sullivan too
today in church i was thinking about how GOOD it felt to be back there.
back at my second home
i was only away at camp and missed mass there for...one weekend
and already it was like...wow. it felt like i had been away for an eternity
you can imagine what i'd be like after spending 2 weeks in japan!
i spend so much time at church
that after only one weekenjd away from it
i miss it so badly
maybe that's a good thing?
hhmm
i'm sure that others feel this wa ytoo
and threy' just ashamed of it
dont' be, guys
be proud of who you are, and what you love...and WHO you love =)
i'd risk looking like a fool for love =)
you should too
okay that wascompletley off the topic, but i just thought of it as i was typing
but yes. hopefully
one of these days i will be like Jamie Sullivan
but for now, i can only dream
and have faith
and work hard
Faith Hope Love
but i'm teeny tiny!
okay, so this is one of the few times in which i tell a s tory in my blog
because to me, a blog really shoudln't be like a journal where you record everything that happens and then write all of your thoughts and feelings about it
because NO
well, not MY blog anyways
MY blog is just thoughts that i have
so if you're curious about my life?
deal with it.
anyways
so my littlest brother was asking me to go with him out to the car to get something
and i asked him why he had asked ME to do it because i was busy blogging
and he said "because mum said to get someone big!"
and then is aid "but i'm not big...i'm teeny tiny!"
and he said "yo uARE big!"
and it went on like that for a few minutes
when i finally gave in and went out to the car with him
my point here is that just because i see myeslf as teeny tiny (which iam, physically)
my brother doesnt!
he still sees me as this huge iconic figure in his life (LOL to anyone who was in mr dama's english class las t year? yeah "My Left Foot" the mother is the *booming voice* ICONIC figure)
i dunno i just wante dt oshare
about how i thought
well
THINK
...KNOW
that people will see you different, depending on who they are, what they are in your life, and what role YOU play in THEIR life
so yeah most of the randoms i see would think me as the little asian midget they see on the street
friends would think me as a friend =)
my admirers (pssh yeah what admirers LOL) would see me as a hero
my brothers look up to me as their iconic figure ...and big bitchy sister =)
all you who aspire to blog like me think me a genius for writing such weird wacky thoughts
aaah i'm putting myself in such great light here =)
but yeah, it works for everybody =)
oh i have another story about my little brother
someone told him that he is asian which he IS
and he said
"I'm not ASIAN! I"M JUST A NORMAL KID!"
and i was thikning
oh my goodness me. where did i go wrong with this borhter of mine?
he's ashamed of being asian? WHAT IS THIS?!
so then i thuoght about how
well, okay he's too young to realise that being asian and being a normal kid isn't something that you can...compare because asians are normal people
you who think otherwise can go shoot yourselves..you racist pigs.
but yes.
he's just so young and innocent, that he doesnt' realise that you can be BOTH!
because i'm both =)
well..i'm asian..and a "normal" kid =)
i'll let you be the judge of that
but yeah.
i love my brothers :D
because to me, a blog really shoudln't be like a journal where you record everything that happens and then write all of your thoughts and feelings about it
because NO
well, not MY blog anyways
MY blog is just thoughts that i have
so if you're curious about my life?
deal with it.
anyways
so my littlest brother was asking me to go with him out to the car to get something
and i asked him why he had asked ME to do it because i was busy blogging
and he said "because mum said to get someone big!"
and then is aid "but i'm not big...i'm teeny tiny!"
and he said "yo uARE big!"
and it went on like that for a few minutes
when i finally gave in and went out to the car with him
my point here is that just because i see myeslf as teeny tiny (which iam, physically)
my brother doesnt!
he still sees me as this huge iconic figure in his life (LOL to anyone who was in mr dama's english class las t year? yeah "My Left Foot" the mother is the *booming voice* ICONIC figure)
i dunno i just wante dt oshare
about how i thought
well
THINK
...KNOW
that people will see you different, depending on who they are, what they are in your life, and what role YOU play in THEIR life
so yeah most of the randoms i see would think me as the little asian midget they see on the street
friends would think me as a friend =)
my admirers (pssh yeah what admirers LOL) would see me as a hero
my brothers look up to me as their iconic figure ...and big bitchy sister =)
all you who aspire to blog like me think me a genius for writing such weird wacky thoughts
aaah i'm putting myself in such great light here =)
but yeah, it works for everybody =)
oh i have another story about my little brother
someone told him that he is asian which he IS
and he said
"I'm not ASIAN! I"M JUST A NORMAL KID!"
and i was thikning
oh my goodness me. where did i go wrong with this borhter of mine?
he's ashamed of being asian? WHAT IS THIS?!
so then i thuoght about how
well, okay he's too young to realise that being asian and being a normal kid isn't something that you can...compare because asians are normal people
you who think otherwise can go shoot yourselves..you racist pigs.
but yes.
he's just so young and innocent, that he doesnt' realise that you can be BOTH!
because i'm both =)
well..i'm asian..and a "normal" kid =)
i'll let you be the judge of that
but yeah.
i love my brothers :D
The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
read this book, guys
i love it
why?
yes it's a brilliant story
yes it tells of the troubles of someone else, so it takes your mind of yours
but the reason that this book stands out among others (the MANY others i have read)
is because it makes you think
and it has those little sentences that inspir eyou
no matter who you are, no matter what the sentence is, they seem to have a way of inspiring you and mkaing you think
this is why is LOVE markus zusak
because he chooses his words so carefully and adequately
i could only ever drea mabuot being able to do so
you want an example?
yeah i thought so =)
here you are:
page 92
"all of this resulted in at least some form or contentment and would soon be built up to approach the concept of Being Happy."
it just shows how important the Being Happy is. i mean, just by capitalising those words, he puts across the message that it is something important, and something that should be...i dunno respected. like...it's something that should be worked towards, because it's such a great concept.
i dunno, i was just so...lifted up by this sentence, maybe because it seems to me that there ARE people out there who have to work towards Being Happy. seems to me that the world is not some freakishly weird (omg i'm using andy's words..O_O) place where everyone is perfectly happy with everything. or where everyone is pathetically derpessed.
another:
page 93
"She was a girl with a mountain to climb."
and she was damn right determined to do so!
yeah that's my kinda girl
in a way, every single one of us have a mountain to climb. some, if not all, have various mountains to climb. maybe noone else thinks of them like i do, but eveyron has them. think abuot it. every challenge that you face in life, is likea mountain.
and maybe those little challenges are little teeny tiny hills =)
but those big massive challenges that you must face in life (maybe life itself could be counted as a mountain) are those mountains of which i speak.
my biggest moutain at the moment woul dhave to be the IB
i'm going to kill them
and that's the mountain that i am determined to overcome
i'm climbing that one
with all my strenght
because i have a goal
and that goal is going to be reached
no matter what
get the idea?
so now, you think about your life
and all the moutains that you have in YOUR life; all of the challenges that you are opposed with either in the long run, or just something that's happened or been happening in the past few days. or something that's coming up.
then think about how you could defeat them
how you can overcome them
because no matter what, you have to keep fighting.
=)
it's a nice philosophical thought to be pondering...
i like philosophical thoughts...
i love it
why?
yes it's a brilliant story
yes it tells of the troubles of someone else, so it takes your mind of yours
but the reason that this book stands out among others (the MANY others i have read)
is because it makes you think
and it has those little sentences that inspir eyou
no matter who you are, no matter what the sentence is, they seem to have a way of inspiring you and mkaing you think
this is why is LOVE markus zusak
because he chooses his words so carefully and adequately
i could only ever drea mabuot being able to do so
you want an example?
yeah i thought so =)
here you are:
page 92
"all of this resulted in at least some form or contentment and would soon be built up to approach the concept of Being Happy."
it just shows how important the Being Happy is. i mean, just by capitalising those words, he puts across the message that it is something important, and something that should be...i dunno respected. like...it's something that should be worked towards, because it's such a great concept.
i dunno, i was just so...lifted up by this sentence, maybe because it seems to me that there ARE people out there who have to work towards Being Happy. seems to me that the world is not some freakishly weird (omg i'm using andy's words..O_O) place where everyone is perfectly happy with everything. or where everyone is pathetically derpessed.
another:
page 93
"She was a girl with a mountain to climb."
and she was damn right determined to do so!
yeah that's my kinda girl
in a way, every single one of us have a mountain to climb. some, if not all, have various mountains to climb. maybe noone else thinks of them like i do, but eveyron has them. think abuot it. every challenge that you face in life, is likea mountain.
and maybe those little challenges are little teeny tiny hills =)
but those big massive challenges that you must face in life (maybe life itself could be counted as a mountain) are those mountains of which i speak.
my biggest moutain at the moment woul dhave to be the IB
i'm going to kill them
and that's the mountain that i am determined to overcome
i'm climbing that one
with all my strenght
because i have a goal
and that goal is going to be reached
no matter what
get the idea?
so now, you think about your life
and all the moutains that you have in YOUR life; all of the challenges that you are opposed with either in the long run, or just something that's happened or been happening in the past few days. or something that's coming up.
then think about how you could defeat them
how you can overcome them
because no matter what, you have to keep fighting.
=)
it's a nice philosophical thought to be pondering...
i like philosophical thoughts...
Let it be
"Let it be, let it be whisper words of wisdom let it be"
yes guys. let it be
LET IT BE
sometimes when something is going on, when something is wrong with somoene
maybe it's best just to LET IT BE?
okay, yeah things do get better once you talka bout thema nd release your feelings and thoguhts (hence, people have blogs..journals...FRIENDS)
but once in a while there's a stage in life when you just feel like noone can help you
and maybe that is true
depends on the person
depends on what that person knows about you
and depends on what the situation is
sometimes you just don't feel like sharing the situation, and it seems a lot better just to not let others worry about your problems
because they'll go away right?
yeah soemtimes they do
sometimes they don't
so soemtimes you've gotta let them out
but it doesnt' mean that your friend is the best person to tell it to
tell it to God
if it's somehting you can't tell
tell it to the nature that's all aruond you
i mean, it's not like that tree is going to turn around and backstab you now, is it?
okay oi don't mean to go up to a t ree and start talking to it
more like, spend some time in a park or something
somehwere where you find peace
like for me i'd go to a library and just sit amongst the books because i know that somehwere in those stacks, on those shelves, there is a btter world. in fact, i know that in that one room, there are a million different worlds into which i can espcae, simply by picking up a book and opening the cover.
but my point here is this:
if someone d oesn't want to tell
let it be
dont' keep bugging them because that act itself may to you seem like it's a show of care, but to them it'd just annoy them and they'd hate you for it
dont' make inferences
don't keep puishing the topic
move ON
because if they know that they can deal with it, then they will
otherwise, if they didn't know that they could deal with it, they'd tell you, right?
so yeah guys
let it be
you should be smart enough (or instinctive enough) to tell when a subject should be p ushed or not. 'kay?
yes guys. let it be
LET IT BE
sometimes when something is going on, when something is wrong with somoene
maybe it's best just to LET IT BE?
okay, yeah things do get better once you talka bout thema nd release your feelings and thoguhts (hence, people have blogs..journals...FRIENDS)
but once in a while there's a stage in life when you just feel like noone can help you
and maybe that is true
depends on the person
depends on what that person knows about you
and depends on what the situation is
sometimes you just don't feel like sharing the situation, and it seems a lot better just to not let others worry about your problems
because they'll go away right?
yeah soemtimes they do
sometimes they don't
so soemtimes you've gotta let them out
but it doesnt' mean that your friend is the best person to tell it to
tell it to God
if it's somehting you can't tell
tell it to the nature that's all aruond you
i mean, it's not like that tree is going to turn around and backstab you now, is it?
okay oi don't mean to go up to a t ree and start talking to it
more like, spend some time in a park or something
somehwere where you find peace
like for me i'd go to a library and just sit amongst the books because i know that somehwere in those stacks, on those shelves, there is a btter world. in fact, i know that in that one room, there are a million different worlds into which i can espcae, simply by picking up a book and opening the cover.
but my point here is this:
if someone d oesn't want to tell
let it be
dont' keep bugging them because that act itself may to you seem like it's a show of care, but to them it'd just annoy them and they'd hate you for it
dont' make inferences
don't keep puishing the topic
move ON
because if they know that they can deal with it, then they will
otherwise, if they didn't know that they could deal with it, they'd tell you, right?
so yeah guys
let it be
you should be smart enough (or instinctive enough) to tell when a subject should be p ushed or not. 'kay?
I like walking in the rain...
because noone can see my tears
well that is a very depressing quote
but it's very true. it's so true, in fact, that i thought of it today whilst riding
BIKE riding =)
at church
and i was thinking
wow, i like riding in the rain
no. 1 i LIKE getting wet from the rain...it just makes you feel so refreshed and clean. it cleans you up physically and spiritually. like, it makes you happy cause you feel better and soo...clean =)
no. 2 well, yes you cant see tears on a person's face while they're walking/riding in the rain
no no i wasn't crying
i was just thinking about it because it was raining and we were riding in the rain
which was actually pretty darn awesome =) even htuogh it was all muddy and stuff
and while i was riding i was thinking to myself
wow yen it's time you started exercising more and putting those TANK muscles into use AND burning off some kiljoules
aaahah then i thought
well i wonder if thinking burns up kilojoules..
because if it DOES then..dude i'd be..
so..
underweight
wow can you imagine that? that would be so awesome to be able to burn energy by thinking
but anyways
i just wanted to say
that yes, i do like walking in the rain
becaus eyou can't see my tears
same with showers
best place to cry=)
but no, i'm not going to go on about this because i really have no reason to atm
i'm too happy with life
i think =)
well that is a very depressing quote
but it's very true. it's so true, in fact, that i thought of it today whilst riding
BIKE riding =)
at church
and i was thinking
wow, i like riding in the rain
no. 1 i LIKE getting wet from the rain...it just makes you feel so refreshed and clean. it cleans you up physically and spiritually. like, it makes you happy cause you feel better and soo...clean =)
no. 2 well, yes you cant see tears on a person's face while they're walking/riding in the rain
no no i wasn't crying
i was just thinking about it because it was raining and we were riding in the rain
which was actually pretty darn awesome =) even htuogh it was all muddy and stuff
and while i was riding i was thinking to myself
wow yen it's time you started exercising more and putting those TANK muscles into use AND burning off some kiljoules
aaahah then i thought
well i wonder if thinking burns up kilojoules..
because if it DOES then..dude i'd be..
so..
underweight
wow can you imagine that? that would be so awesome to be able to burn energy by thinking
but anyways
i just wanted to say
that yes, i do like walking in the rain
becaus eyou can't see my tears
same with showers
best place to cry=)
but no, i'm not going to go on about this because i really have no reason to atm
i'm too happy with life
i think =)
Saturday, April 25, 2009
piano
well for some reasons
these days my piano and i are inseparable. yeah that's right. i had to give up being with my PIANO to go to andy's house on thursday night. yeah see guys? see how much i sacrafice for you guys? HUH?
well yeah. umm yeah my point is that for SOME unknown reason, i find myself sitting and playing for hours on end at random times during the day. it's as if every single time i walk past the piano my brain says "dude. go sit and play." ye ah cause for SOME reason i'm compelled to play. and it's even made me late for things heaps of times because it's right outside m yroom so every time i walk out or into my room i see it there. and i'm drawn to it
okay so this is a weird post
but there IS a reason
right, so i was playing
and i was thikning (because i'm such an awesome player that i can play and think at the same time..eeww you sick minded child. what were YOU thinking?) LOL
and i was thinking about how life...life is like playing the piano
there are so many keys (88..i think) and the chances of hitting the wrong key is higher than hitting the right key
and then you've gotta get into the mode of all the timing and rhythm and stuff as well, at the same time working on the pitch and hitting the RIGHT note
well! yeah it sounds hard but after practice you've pretty much got it down pat
that's what life is like
i mean, the chances of you doing something wrong, making the wrong choices and stuffing up your life are a lot higher than being able to make the right decisions every single time!
how true is that?!
but then again, it comes with practice
sooo once you've gone down the same path a few times, played the same song, gotten some experince, then it becomes easier every time. so you learn to be able to do these things with your eyes closed.
hey hey guys! i can play the pianow ith my eyes closed =) don't believe me? well i'll show you one day.
LOL but yeah
once you get good enoug, and you've gained enough experience, you can do these things with your ryes closed.
like, make some of the simpler and more frequently encountered decisions easily and with minimal thought.
but yeah. that was a sc rewed up thought
i dunno what's up with me lately
i'm too relaxed =) i don't htink enough interesting thoughts LOL
probably cause i just DON"T think as much during the holidays
but anyways
my hair
is in
awesome pigtails
no no not PIGTAILS
htey're like
bouncing bunches
in the AIR bouncing
like
they're DEFYING GRAVITY!
it's awesome
and they jump when i walk
=)
i like this..makes me look heaps younger
and yeah =)
AAHAHAHA okay i'm sow eird O_O
but yeah i''ll wear my hair like this on the first day of school
and take it down if i get too many weird looks
but LOL yeah
school in lke 2 days guys =(
back to the good (cough) old stressful school life
me hearties
oh and another thing
last month i posted 36 (!!!!) blogs
and this month this one is only my 27th..woner if i could break that record?
nah i'm not gonna try and fill this up wtih shitty random CRAP just cause i wanna up my numbers
we'll see if i have as many...weird awes ome interesting thoughts any more this month
whcih i'm sure iw ill
because next saturday i have the public speaking comp. the first hEAT and i have so much more on this coming week
on top of school, that is
and OMGSH GUYS DEBATING TEAM?! WE NEED TO START WORKING ON OUR DEBATE BCAUSE IT"S COMING UP!!!
well yeah=)
more later i suppose
these days my piano and i are inseparable. yeah that's right. i had to give up being with my PIANO to go to andy's house on thursday night. yeah see guys? see how much i sacrafice for you guys? HUH?
well yeah. umm yeah my point is that for SOME unknown reason, i find myself sitting and playing for hours on end at random times during the day. it's as if every single time i walk past the piano my brain says "dude. go sit and play." ye ah cause for SOME reason i'm compelled to play. and it's even made me late for things heaps of times because it's right outside m yroom so every time i walk out or into my room i see it there. and i'm drawn to it
okay so this is a weird post
but there IS a reason
right, so i was playing
and i was thikning (because i'm such an awesome player that i can play and think at the same time..eeww you sick minded child. what were YOU thinking?) LOL
and i was thinking about how life...life is like playing the piano
there are so many keys (88..i think) and the chances of hitting the wrong key is higher than hitting the right key
and then you've gotta get into the mode of all the timing and rhythm and stuff as well, at the same time working on the pitch and hitting the RIGHT note
well! yeah it sounds hard but after practice you've pretty much got it down pat
that's what life is like
i mean, the chances of you doing something wrong, making the wrong choices and stuffing up your life are a lot higher than being able to make the right decisions every single time!
how true is that?!
but then again, it comes with practice
sooo once you've gone down the same path a few times, played the same song, gotten some experince, then it becomes easier every time. so you learn to be able to do these things with your eyes closed.
hey hey guys! i can play the pianow ith my eyes closed =) don't believe me? well i'll show you one day.
LOL but yeah
once you get good enoug, and you've gained enough experience, you can do these things with your ryes closed.
like, make some of the simpler and more frequently encountered decisions easily and with minimal thought.
but yeah. that was a sc rewed up thought
i dunno what's up with me lately
i'm too relaxed =) i don't htink enough interesting thoughts LOL
probably cause i just DON"T think as much during the holidays
but anyways
my hair
is in
awesome pigtails
no no not PIGTAILS
htey're like
bouncing bunches
in the AIR bouncing
like
they're DEFYING GRAVITY!
it's awesome
and they jump when i walk
=)
i like this..makes me look heaps younger
and yeah =)
AAHAHAHA okay i'm sow eird O_O
but yeah i''ll wear my hair like this on the first day of school
and take it down if i get too many weird looks
but LOL yeah
school in lke 2 days guys =(
back to the good (cough) old stressful school life
me hearties
oh and another thing
last month i posted 36 (!!!!) blogs
and this month this one is only my 27th..woner if i could break that record?
nah i'm not gonna try and fill this up wtih shitty random CRAP just cause i wanna up my numbers
we'll see if i have as many...weird awes ome interesting thoughts any more this month
whcih i'm sure iw ill
because next saturday i have the public speaking comp. the first hEAT and i have so much more on this coming week
on top of school, that is
and OMGSH GUYS DEBATING TEAM?! WE NEED TO START WORKING ON OUR DEBATE BCAUSE IT"S COMING UP!!!
well yeah=)
more later i suppose
Friday, April 24, 2009
realisations
hey hey
has anyone else realised that today is the last day of our holidays?
like WHAT THE HELL?!
yeah man. where did our holidays go? i mean this was a crap holiday cause SOME PEOPLE weren't even HOME in the first week, so we co udln't do anything...and now it's just too late
did anyone else realise that the breast cancer gig is in...like 4 days? i t's neXT TUESDAY and WHOA what the hell right? ccause well, i personally think that we're not all too well prepared but it's okay because bring it. we can take you. we NMHS musos can take ON THE WORLD. so you wanna go? huh? huh? HUH? WELL BRING IT CAUSE WE CAN TAKE IT !
=) sorry. a bit overboard. teeehee
oh and one of my posts down there...
says that i was going ot elaborate on some thiknnigs i had
well i'msorry guys but yeah..those trains of thought kinda c rashed into trees. and died. so i really don't remember what i had thought about those...
but sorry.
um
i'm apologising a lot.
oh hey did you know that aussies are well known for apologising a LOT?
well i never realised it, but then when i thought about it, it's TRUE! i mean, we say "sorry" for every little thing, but noone goes "hey you shoudlnt be sorry" because well..it's like NORMAL now
wow that was weird =)
sorry guys this is a really shitty post
my brain just hasn't been worknig a t all, so technically i haven' thad any thoughts that are worth recording.
soryr
ima go ehcek the weather forecast now =)
has anyone else realised that today is the last day of our holidays?
like WHAT THE HELL?!
yeah man. where did our holidays go? i mean this was a crap holiday cause SOME PEOPLE weren't even HOME in the first week, so we co udln't do anything...and now it's just too late
did anyone else realise that the breast cancer gig is in...like 4 days? i t's neXT TUESDAY and WHOA what the hell right? ccause well, i personally think that we're not all too well prepared but it's okay because bring it. we can take you. we NMHS musos can take ON THE WORLD. so you wanna go? huh? huh? HUH? WELL BRING IT CAUSE WE CAN TAKE IT !
=) sorry. a bit overboard. teeehee
oh and one of my posts down there...
says that i was going ot elaborate on some thiknnigs i had
well i'msorry guys but yeah..those trains of thought kinda c rashed into trees. and died. so i really don't remember what i had thought about those...
but sorry.
um
i'm apologising a lot.
oh hey did you know that aussies are well known for apologising a LOT?
well i never realised it, but then when i thought about it, it's TRUE! i mean, we say "sorry" for every little thing, but noone goes "hey you shoudlnt be sorry" because well..it's like NORMAL now
wow that was weird =)
sorry guys this is a really shitty post
my brain just hasn't been worknig a t all, so technically i haven' thad any thoughts that are worth recording.
soryr
ima go ehcek the weather forecast now =)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
the aftermath
yeah the aftermath is me being sick.
along with heaps of other people , but still
i'm sick.
and i hate it
can' thtink atm
sorry =(
along with heaps of other people , but still
i'm sick.
and i hate it
can' thtink atm
sorry =(
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
L'amour
aaah TN concert 2008
L'amour
loved it
i just wanted to say
whoever came up with the idea of throwing L'amour hearts into the lua thieng on sunday night was brilliant. simply brilliant. i almost cried cause it was so meaningful and touching =)
throwing our L'amour love into the lua thieng, to mang lua ve tim.
sigh.
simply brilliant.
L'amour to all
i'll never forget that...never
L'amour
loved it
i just wanted to say
whoever came up with the idea of throwing L'amour hearts into the lua thieng on sunday night was brilliant. simply brilliant. i almost cried cause it was so meaningful and touching =)
throwing our L'amour love into the lua thieng, to mang lua ve tim.
sigh.
simply brilliant.
L'amour to all
i'll never forget that...never
Monday, April 20, 2009
1 hour, 21 minutes away
one hour and twenty-one minutes away from home. Yet, there, i felt more at home than i usually do here in radelaide. why? possibly because of the people who i am constantly arounda ll of the time when i was on camp? maybe because of the awes ome atmosphere, and the ground (LOL) beneath our feet (and occasionally beneath our bodies...our kneess...our hands...LOL)
but no matter why, i was so totally at home when at camp wi th my beloveds. seriously. it's the best feeling in the world, knowing that you are able to say anything at anytime and no matter how stupid or...absurd it is, all they can do is laugh. it's like a dream world. i love it sooo much. because with my thieu nhi people, i fit in completley. seamlessly. we walk around together, we can talk to anyone. and you know what? i thought it unlikely, but thanks to this camp, i have made new friends (with those i've known my whole life), strengthened my relationships with family members, done countless stupid things, taken a shower at 5 am, lived for 4 days without technology, slept in a tent with a million creepy crawlies, spent 15 mins spraying aeroguard nonstop, sat in front of a campfire with those i love, played uno using the light of a few glowsticks, had julian make me and nhu cry, laughed so hard i was unable to breathe, gone through major highs, and lows, realisd that eating lollies is more e ffective than panadol, kicked ass in tro choi lon, solved so many mat thu, eaten the first roast in my life, and much much more.
well what was tn camp?
well, more like, what is tn camp to me?
it is:
trust
it's all about building up trust with your group members, trust in the leaders. we took a few trust walks in the dark with blindfolds and were led all around the campsite, over, under, even through obstacles with no way of knowing what they were. the only means of protection that we had were the somewhat comforting voices of the leaders who stayed by our sides.
competition
competition to be the best between the groups. okay so my group, Rosa, won the co danh du TWICE SO UP YOURS. and we only didn't win it the 2nd day becauise...because i have no idea why. i mean we totally kicked ass in tro choi lon. seriously. they kept pushing us back, peter even made up a station to steal lollies off of us and to slow us down (keo duoc san xuat o ben israel) but we came ba ck every single time. back on top again. except for the stupid dinner station. i mean, for some reason this year, they made everyone stop at dinner and start again and we got let out first, but the thing is stupid tue was HIDING his station...hate him >__>
making friends
wow, i got to know so many more people so much better this camp. i mean, i know it happens at every single camp ,an di know that i t's normal and all because camp brings out the best and the worst in everyone, but i still can't get over how close i've become to the following people in particular: my team, Rosa, being Ngoc, Michael (especially thanks to our boat experience), Nhi, Michelle, Huy, Teresa, Tam An, Thao, Bang, Ngan. and so many more. seriously, i've just made sooo many more friends. oh and especailly Martin. LOL martin =) anyways yeah. it's just so amazing how all it takes is a few days of camping and doing the most ridiculous things in front of each other to become such good friends. because you know, when the whole doan is doing stupid things, you don't have to worry, or rather, you SHOULDN"T worry about how stupid you look. for two reas ons: 1, it's Thieu Nhi guys. get over it and de al with it, all for one and one for all. 2. everyone else looks stupid too.
learning
of course we learnt heaps, like every other year, and that has really paid off in the tro choi lon. of course =)
gaining respect
i gained a LOT of respect from people at camp this year. like Loc, he..well he said to me on the first day, "You. You better win this tro choi lon for your group. I'm expecting you to." Then on saturday, he kept on saying how brilliant our group is. because we kept getting pushed back, but kept on gettin gback on top. wow you should have heard his voice when i figured out the maths one, w ith the recurring patterns and stuff. oh and how it took us onlye about 3 minutes to work out the cube one, whereas other groups were completely lost. wow man. so awesome. and we conquered station after station and all the HTs were just so impresssed because we were able to talk our way out of eve rything. just too good. and i will never forget that feeling of satisfaction when the HTs are leaning over our group while we're solving mat thus, and they say, wow you guys have got it =) and then you just feel so good about yourself and so proud of your group because you've done it. and in record time, too, i might add =) and all those HTs who said to us, "wow, this group is in the lead again. wow you guys are awesome. brilliant. just amazing"
yep
oh and that feeling of...well, of just knowing that i have a place of my own in the Xu Doan Teresa, when Nhi and Michelle and Ngoc were going around (well those are the ones i heard..dunno abuot anyone else in my group) saying things like "wow, yen's got it covered. seriously she's soo good. every time we got a mat thu she just opened it, looked at it for a second and then had worked it out!"
and then there were the DBTs and HTs talking amongst themselves.
oh and i seriously will NEVER forget when we were solving the very first mat thu, the powers one. and i had it figured out after looking at it for a minute. and then i said I GOT IT! and then Loc was standing over the group and he said "this is a GOOD key. it's a really good mat thu" and then i was like YES and then eveyrone else helped me solve the rest of it, cause we then knew how it worked. and then Loc said "yep this group's figured it out" and then somenoe asked him "What have you figured out?" and then Loc said "we've figured out that this girl is mai chi and lan chi combined but better"
and i was like
wow.
in case yo udidnt' know
that is the greatest compliment i could ever get. serioulsy. for starters mai chi is the bomb at everything. she's incredibly smart. knows her tn stuff really well. she's just like chi huong. and lan chi is the maths girl. wow them combined is like the super girl. the wonder woman. the TN guru. but to be BETTER than them COMBINED? that's more than i could ever ask for
well, it hink that elated me for the whole of camp, and most likely the rest of the tn days; knowing that my skills not only match the combined knowledge of mai chi AND lan chi, but knowing that people see my skills as better than them. well that's it. i guess i know what i should be capable of, i mean, look at lan chi. and look at mai chi. if i'm them combined w ell, who knows how high i can go. maybe even higher. hope for me.
anyway
what else is ca mp?
camp is being compeltely stupid in front of everyone
and not caring
camp is talking in mixed viet and english and knowing that eveyrone understands you
camp is talking in perfect synchronisation with someone else, in both viet and english mixed into the same sentence, with the exact same words in each la nguage. wow that was awe s ome
camp is playing games where eveyrone gets humiliated
camp is being scared by peter and his stupid bang band game
camp is the thrill you get when you've won something for your team
camp is utter humiliation
camp is suffereing, it's hy sinh
camp is singing across tents with phong's tent; belting out lame old songs until othe rpeople come out and check our tent because they thought we were out in the middle of the tent circle singing. we were that loud =)
camp is getting completely soaked on the last day by EVERYONE
camp is awesome.
i love it.
but as always, good things must come to an end.
"Man dem buong loi theo anh lua gian tan
Tinh anh em ta theo anh lua tran lan
Tim ta day con khac ghi bao nhieu moi tinh man nong
Lua dem nay tan nhung lua tim con chay am tham ngan doi
Biet ly muon phuong ta nguyen dem lua thieng rai rac khap chon
Mong mai sau ngon lua thieng chay len dot long moi nguoi."
i love that song
and i purposely stood next to those i love because of the son'gs meaning
also that song is just so..beautiful
it's perfect for what we feel at that time of camp, when everything is coming to an end
when we take a moment and think about all we've achieved, and all that we've conquered. all of the obstacles we've overcome and all those people we've made friends with. it's thinking about the love going around in that circle, and knowing that no matter what, we'll always be friends. forever. as long as there is TN in this world, there will always be that long lasting friendship that is formed wherever tn goes. we were singing that song about a half hour before van left. van came back guys =) well, because van came back, she had to leave. i guess all good things really do have to come to an end. it was an awesome week and a half with you, van. and it was an even awesomer camp.
there is so much left to say
there is so much more that i could tell you all about TN
and the emotions that everyone gets, the feeling of belonging that yo uget when you know that you're in for good
they're just so indescribable
i've only barely scraped the surface of all i have to say.
i just wanted to say
that although we were so far from home
we were all at home in our hearts
what, with each other, and God
we're complete at camp
it's just so enlightening (okay, bad word) but it's just so GOOD
i dunno how else i can sayit
but it was thanks to this camp that i realised how much more at home i am when i'm with my TN friends. no offence toanyone. but i never really realised how compeltely happy i am when with TN people, talking in two languages at once, talking ABOUT the randomest things. oh and doing the stupidest thing s in the world. and and and
sigh
i wish i could have recorded every single moment of that camp; of all the past camps, record every little emotion i feel, every thought i have about the camp, abuot the people around me. and es pecially record every single moment i have with each person. sometimes i just need to glance around the dining room to catch the eyes of all those i love. and we share that moment. and i just wish so much that i could engrave all of those moments into my heart. into my heart and into my head. never to be forgotten. but alas, we must forget. be caus e we are human. but i don't wan t those memories to go awa y too soon
....and to think that i ever thought that i was never fully happy. seriously man. camp needs to be longer. much much longer.
this year, just when we were getting used to the shit on the ground, just when the ground was getting clean from us kicking it all aw ay , just when the smell was completely gone and just when we were all settled and happy, camp ended. oh well. it'll come back next year, right? =)
for all those who didn't go: you missed out on way too much. maybe it wasn' tthe best camp, but i choose not the judge how good a camp is. why? well, because every single camp has its good points and its bad points. but yes, it was awesome. that's all yo une ed to know. and you missed out on it. longwood was awesome too. old woodhosue was aweso m e too (my group won! WOOT)
for all those who went: i'm glad i was able to share that experience with you. i'm glad that you undersatnd the lame jokes we make about camp (just like wyd people) (LOL THIEN DO AAHAHAHAHAHAHA) i'm glad you went to camp. next year for sure =)
but no matter why, i was so totally at home when at camp wi th my beloveds. seriously. it's the best feeling in the world, knowing that you are able to say anything at anytime and no matter how stupid or...absurd it is, all they can do is laugh. it's like a dream world. i love it sooo much. because with my thieu nhi people, i fit in completley. seamlessly. we walk around together, we can talk to anyone. and you know what? i thought it unlikely, but thanks to this camp, i have made new friends (with those i've known my whole life), strengthened my relationships with family members, done countless stupid things, taken a shower at 5 am, lived for 4 days without technology, slept in a tent with a million creepy crawlies, spent 15 mins spraying aeroguard nonstop, sat in front of a campfire with those i love, played uno using the light of a few glowsticks, had julian make me and nhu cry, laughed so hard i was unable to breathe, gone through major highs, and lows, realisd that eating lollies is more e ffective than panadol, kicked ass in tro choi lon, solved so many mat thu, eaten the first roast in my life, and much much more.
well what was tn camp?
well, more like, what is tn camp to me?
it is:
trust
it's all about building up trust with your group members, trust in the leaders. we took a few trust walks in the dark with blindfolds and were led all around the campsite, over, under, even through obstacles with no way of knowing what they were. the only means of protection that we had were the somewhat comforting voices of the leaders who stayed by our sides.
competition
competition to be the best between the groups. okay so my group, Rosa, won the co danh du TWICE SO UP YOURS. and we only didn't win it the 2nd day becauise...because i have no idea why. i mean we totally kicked ass in tro choi lon. seriously. they kept pushing us back, peter even made up a station to steal lollies off of us and to slow us down (keo duoc san xuat o ben israel) but we came ba ck every single time. back on top again. except for the stupid dinner station. i mean, for some reason this year, they made everyone stop at dinner and start again and we got let out first, but the thing is stupid tue was HIDING his station...hate him >__>
making friends
wow, i got to know so many more people so much better this camp. i mean, i know it happens at every single camp ,an di know that i t's normal and all because camp brings out the best and the worst in everyone, but i still can't get over how close i've become to the following people in particular: my team, Rosa, being Ngoc, Michael (especially thanks to our boat experience), Nhi, Michelle, Huy, Teresa, Tam An, Thao, Bang, Ngan. and so many more. seriously, i've just made sooo many more friends. oh and especailly Martin. LOL martin =) anyways yeah. it's just so amazing how all it takes is a few days of camping and doing the most ridiculous things in front of each other to become such good friends. because you know, when the whole doan is doing stupid things, you don't have to worry, or rather, you SHOULDN"T worry about how stupid you look. for two reas ons: 1, it's Thieu Nhi guys. get over it and de al with it, all for one and one for all. 2. everyone else looks stupid too.
learning
of course we learnt heaps, like every other year, and that has really paid off in the tro choi lon. of course =)
gaining respect
i gained a LOT of respect from people at camp this year. like Loc, he..well he said to me on the first day, "You. You better win this tro choi lon for your group. I'm expecting you to." Then on saturday, he kept on saying how brilliant our group is. because we kept getting pushed back, but kept on gettin gback on top. wow you should have heard his voice when i figured out the maths one, w ith the recurring patterns and stuff. oh and how it took us onlye about 3 minutes to work out the cube one, whereas other groups were completely lost. wow man. so awesome. and we conquered station after station and all the HTs were just so impresssed because we were able to talk our way out of eve rything. just too good. and i will never forget that feeling of satisfaction when the HTs are leaning over our group while we're solving mat thus, and they say, wow you guys have got it =) and then you just feel so good about yourself and so proud of your group because you've done it. and in record time, too, i might add =) and all those HTs who said to us, "wow, this group is in the lead again. wow you guys are awesome. brilliant. just amazing"
yep
oh and that feeling of...well, of just knowing that i have a place of my own in the Xu Doan Teresa, when Nhi and Michelle and Ngoc were going around (well those are the ones i heard..dunno abuot anyone else in my group) saying things like "wow, yen's got it covered. seriously she's soo good. every time we got a mat thu she just opened it, looked at it for a second and then had worked it out!"
and then there were the DBTs and HTs talking amongst themselves.
oh and i seriously will NEVER forget when we were solving the very first mat thu, the powers one. and i had it figured out after looking at it for a minute. and then i said I GOT IT! and then Loc was standing over the group and he said "this is a GOOD key. it's a really good mat thu" and then i was like YES and then eveyrone else helped me solve the rest of it, cause we then knew how it worked. and then Loc said "yep this group's figured it out" and then somenoe asked him "What have you figured out?" and then Loc said "we've figured out that this girl is mai chi and lan chi combined but better"
and i was like
wow.
in case yo udidnt' know
that is the greatest compliment i could ever get. serioulsy. for starters mai chi is the bomb at everything. she's incredibly smart. knows her tn stuff really well. she's just like chi huong. and lan chi is the maths girl. wow them combined is like the super girl. the wonder woman. the TN guru. but to be BETTER than them COMBINED? that's more than i could ever ask for
well, it hink that elated me for the whole of camp, and most likely the rest of the tn days; knowing that my skills not only match the combined knowledge of mai chi AND lan chi, but knowing that people see my skills as better than them. well that's it. i guess i know what i should be capable of, i mean, look at lan chi. and look at mai chi. if i'm them combined w ell, who knows how high i can go. maybe even higher. hope for me.
anyway
what else is ca mp?
camp is being compeltely stupid in front of everyone
and not caring
camp is talking in mixed viet and english and knowing that eveyrone understands you
camp is talking in perfect synchronisation with someone else, in both viet and english mixed into the same sentence, with the exact same words in each la nguage. wow that was awe s ome
camp is playing games where eveyrone gets humiliated
camp is being scared by peter and his stupid bang band game
camp is the thrill you get when you've won something for your team
camp is utter humiliation
camp is suffereing, it's hy sinh
camp is singing across tents with phong's tent; belting out lame old songs until othe rpeople come out and check our tent because they thought we were out in the middle of the tent circle singing. we were that loud =)
camp is getting completely soaked on the last day by EVERYONE
camp is awesome.
i love it.
but as always, good things must come to an end.
"Man dem buong loi theo anh lua gian tan
Tinh anh em ta theo anh lua tran lan
Tim ta day con khac ghi bao nhieu moi tinh man nong
Lua dem nay tan nhung lua tim con chay am tham ngan doi
Biet ly muon phuong ta nguyen dem lua thieng rai rac khap chon
Mong mai sau ngon lua thieng chay len dot long moi nguoi."
i love that song
and i purposely stood next to those i love because of the son'gs meaning
also that song is just so..beautiful
it's perfect for what we feel at that time of camp, when everything is coming to an end
when we take a moment and think about all we've achieved, and all that we've conquered. all of the obstacles we've overcome and all those people we've made friends with. it's thinking about the love going around in that circle, and knowing that no matter what, we'll always be friends. forever. as long as there is TN in this world, there will always be that long lasting friendship that is formed wherever tn goes. we were singing that song about a half hour before van left. van came back guys =) well, because van came back, she had to leave. i guess all good things really do have to come to an end. it was an awesome week and a half with you, van. and it was an even awesomer camp.
there is so much left to say
there is so much more that i could tell you all about TN
and the emotions that everyone gets, the feeling of belonging that yo uget when you know that you're in for good
they're just so indescribable
i've only barely scraped the surface of all i have to say.
i just wanted to say
that although we were so far from home
we were all at home in our hearts
what, with each other, and God
we're complete at camp
it's just so enlightening (okay, bad word) but it's just so GOOD
i dunno how else i can sayit
but it was thanks to this camp that i realised how much more at home i am when i'm with my TN friends. no offence toanyone. but i never really realised how compeltely happy i am when with TN people, talking in two languages at once, talking ABOUT the randomest things. oh and doing the stupidest thing s in the world. and and and
sigh
i wish i could have recorded every single moment of that camp; of all the past camps, record every little emotion i feel, every thought i have about the camp, abuot the people around me. and es pecially record every single moment i have with each person. sometimes i just need to glance around the dining room to catch the eyes of all those i love. and we share that moment. and i just wish so much that i could engrave all of those moments into my heart. into my heart and into my head. never to be forgotten. but alas, we must forget. be caus e we are human. but i don't wan t those memories to go awa y too soon
....and to think that i ever thought that i was never fully happy. seriously man. camp needs to be longer. much much longer.
this year, just when we were getting used to the shit on the ground, just when the ground was getting clean from us kicking it all aw ay , just when the smell was completely gone and just when we were all settled and happy, camp ended. oh well. it'll come back next year, right? =)
for all those who didn't go: you missed out on way too much. maybe it wasn' tthe best camp, but i choose not the judge how good a camp is. why? well, because every single camp has its good points and its bad points. but yes, it was awesome. that's all yo une ed to know. and you missed out on it. longwood was awesome too. old woodhosue was aweso m e too (my group won! WOOT)
for all those who went: i'm glad i was able to share that experience with you. i'm glad that you undersatnd the lame jokes we make about camp (just like wyd people) (LOL THIEN DO AAHAHAHAHAHAHA) i'm glad you went to camp. next year for sure =)
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Strength
"It's wonderful how you feel so powerful. Many people don't feel powerful at all"
that's from matilda
you know...but roald dahl?
yeah it's from the movie
and well, when that bit came on, i was thinking
damn straight
not many people feel like they hve the power, even though they really do
like, sometimes you see yourself as the smallest person on earth
with the least amount of power to make an imapct on the big big world
but really, you DO have the strength
strength comes in different forms
but yeah
i'm not in the mood right now
not anymore
i was FULLY in the zone when i was watching ht emovie
and now it's like...errr what was i gonna say??
but it's okay i'll write more about this some other time
but yeah
"Courage is not the absence of fear"
from The Princess Diaries
well, the movie >__>
anwyays i'm going to hunt down a copy of Matilda
cause it was my most favouriste book for a long time
and i'm going to read ita gain
okay?
oh and btw i'm tryig to fix my most favourite book
and
yeah it broke
LOL anyone who's seen it will understand
it's TRAGIC
anyways
ima try fixing it with glue
but it's crappy gllue
and my plan B is to use tape
duct tape. or sticky tape. or masking ta pe. just TAPE
and my plan C is to bring another book onto the bus to camp
andy's suggetsing books atm :D
that's from matilda
you know...but roald dahl?
yeah it's from the movie
and well, when that bit came on, i was thinking
damn straight
not many people feel like they hve the power, even though they really do
like, sometimes you see yourself as the smallest person on earth
with the least amount of power to make an imapct on the big big world
but really, you DO have the strength
strength comes in different forms
but yeah
i'm not in the mood right now
not anymore
i was FULLY in the zone when i was watching ht emovie
and now it's like...errr what was i gonna say??
but it's okay i'll write more about this some other time
but yeah
"Courage is not the absence of fear"
from The Princess Diaries
well, the movie >__>
anwyays i'm going to hunt down a copy of Matilda
cause it was my most favouriste book for a long time
and i'm going to read ita gain
okay?
oh and btw i'm tryig to fix my most favourite book
and
yeah it broke
LOL anyone who's seen it will understand
it's TRAGIC
anyways
ima try fixing it with glue
but it's crappy gllue
and my plan B is to use tape
duct tape. or sticky tape. or masking ta pe. just TAPE
and my plan C is to bring another book onto the bus to camp
andy's suggetsing books atm :D
self esteem
well anyways
to continue with my hair story..
(WOW it's been TWO WHOLE days since my last blog. wow. something's up wtih me?)
anyways
the guy was like tome
oh yeah i'll just re-layer your hair, and then straighten it, and hten you'll be pretty =D, as long as your friends tell you look good, it's all good, hey?
and i'm like...err...yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, but don't re-layer it? O_O_O_O_O
well gee. that clearly did a lot for my self esteem. cause you know, because my hair had grown out of shape and it wasn't straihgtned then I WASNT PRETTY! well i got back at him and wa slike chyeah i really do'nt want my hair to be relayered. be cause i'm growing it out, you see. i want m yhair tobe like it was at the beginning o fyear 8...siiiiiighhhh
then he was like oh yeah that's cool
and then i was like >____>
clearly he was putting across the message that:
a) i wasn't gonna be pretty unless i had my hair straightneed and completley fully asian TB layered (eeeww)
and
b) what my friends think of how i look is all that really matters to me
well that's not true
sure, it's great to get compliments from friends and other people, but you know, i really do'nt give a c rap if someone came up to me and was like
err your hair looks shit today. who cut it?
because it's MY hair and it's mY body and it's MY look. not YOURS.
and this guy was going around, clealry promoting the idea that appearance is really important
clealry he assumed that i went to get my hair cut becaus ei wanted to be "pretty"
nono, see, the only reason i was getting my hair cut was because my fringe was ge tting ridiculously long. but then now it's like 3cm long >__>
which is just stupid
because the whole point of me going to get a haircut was because i wanted a shorter fringe. now it's practically not even there. which is gay. and before my haircut, i LIKED the length of my hair. an dthe thickness. because it was starting to look like it did BEFORE igot it all cut off. but THEN the guy cut it again. and the top layer is back to hte length where it is short enough to be annoying and sticking up all over the place, but long enuogh to like, kick out eveyrwhere. which is really gay because i had JUST grown it past the length where it's like a bird's nest when i wake up. and i'm going to camp tomorrow. which is jsut great because at ca mp the population of mirrors is like...1.
and the TIME in which i would have to wash my hair before anyone sees it or DO something about it being all kinky and all over the place is like 2 seconds.
so. that's great.
so i have start ed to wear headbands agaiN! yay!
seriously i wore one for the firstt ime yesterday since...err since like year 6?
no wait
WHOA
i actually
no
since yaer...4
O_O
my goodness.
wow LOL cause ba ck then my hair was either too long and didnt' need a headband cause i could jsut tie it up, or i ha d a f ringe and didn't like putting on headbands over fringes.
well i just can't wait utnil my hair is long and thick and EVEN enough to braid it again =) hey guys remember that time in year 8 when i went through a pha s e and braided my hair every single day, and one day i spent like 5 hours ont it an di had ...9 i think braids
and it looked really AWESOME :D
anyways
my hair will grow out
...
so yeah dont' let me cut it again
utnil my birthday this year
which is in like 5 months. so hopefully by then it'll be long again =)
and then yeah
screw my fringe
i thin i'm over my fringe now >__>
LOL i can just do something, maybe le tit grow out again and yeha. wlel i guess i could have it there and only wear it as a fringe whenever i feel like it. otherwise it'll just be like. part of my hair...
oooooookay that was weird
but yeah
hmm fringe would look nice right about NOW
like a fringe that is longer than bloody 3 cm >__>
anyways i"M ALL PACKED FOR CAAAMP!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
=D
to continue with my hair story..
(WOW it's been TWO WHOLE days since my last blog. wow. something's up wtih me?)
anyways
the guy was like tome
oh yeah i'll just re-layer your hair, and then straighten it, and hten you'll be pretty =D, as long as your friends tell you look good, it's all good, hey?
and i'm like...err...yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, but don't re-layer it? O_O_O_O_O
well gee. that clearly did a lot for my self esteem. cause you know, because my hair had grown out of shape and it wasn't straihgtned then I WASNT PRETTY! well i got back at him and wa slike chyeah i really do'nt want my hair to be relayered. be cause i'm growing it out, you see. i want m yhair tobe like it was at the beginning o fyear 8...siiiiiighhhh
then he was like oh yeah that's cool
and then i was like >____>
clearly he was putting across the message that:
a) i wasn't gonna be pretty unless i had my hair straightneed and completley fully asian TB layered (eeeww)
and
b) what my friends think of how i look is all that really matters to me
well that's not true
sure, it's great to get compliments from friends and other people, but you know, i really do'nt give a c rap if someone came up to me and was like
err your hair looks shit today. who cut it?
because it's MY hair and it's mY body and it's MY look. not YOURS.
and this guy was going around, clealry promoting the idea that appearance is really important
clealry he assumed that i went to get my hair cut becaus ei wanted to be "pretty"
nono, see, the only reason i was getting my hair cut was because my fringe was ge tting ridiculously long. but then now it's like 3cm long >__>
which is just stupid
because the whole point of me going to get a haircut was because i wanted a shorter fringe. now it's practically not even there. which is gay. and before my haircut, i LIKED the length of my hair. an dthe thickness. because it was starting to look like it did BEFORE igot it all cut off. but THEN the guy cut it again. and the top layer is back to hte length where it is short enough to be annoying and sticking up all over the place, but long enuogh to like, kick out eveyrwhere. which is really gay because i had JUST grown it past the length where it's like a bird's nest when i wake up. and i'm going to camp tomorrow. which is jsut great because at ca mp the population of mirrors is like...1.
and the TIME in which i would have to wash my hair before anyone sees it or DO something about it being all kinky and all over the place is like 2 seconds.
so. that's great.
so i have start ed to wear headbands agaiN! yay!
seriously i wore one for the firstt ime yesterday since...err since like year 6?
no wait
WHOA
i actually
no
since yaer...4
O_O
my goodness.
wow LOL cause ba ck then my hair was either too long and didnt' need a headband cause i could jsut tie it up, or i ha d a f ringe and didn't like putting on headbands over fringes.
well i just can't wait utnil my hair is long and thick and EVEN enough to braid it again =) hey guys remember that time in year 8 when i went through a pha s e and braided my hair every single day, and one day i spent like 5 hours ont it an di had ...9 i think braids
and it looked really AWESOME :D
anyways
my hair will grow out
...
so yeah dont' let me cut it again
utnil my birthday this year
which is in like 5 months. so hopefully by then it'll be long again =)
and then yeah
screw my fringe
i thin i'm over my fringe now >__>
LOL i can just do something, maybe le tit grow out again and yeha. wlel i guess i could have it there and only wear it as a fringe whenever i feel like it. otherwise it'll just be like. part of my hair...
oooooookay that was weird
but yeah
hmm fringe would look nice right about NOW
like a fringe that is longer than bloody 3 cm >__>
anyways i"M ALL PACKED FOR CAAAMP!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
=D
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
my haircut
GEEE AAITCH DEEEE
good hair day
LOL whatever
it's like yeah sure it makes you LOOK good, but dude it KILLS your hair!
i mean, my hair was straightened today by the hairdresser for FREE (i think it was cause i go to the same school as his sons and he like...admires me cause i'm doing IB >__>)
and OMG i could SEE my hair STEAMING
like seriously i was like WTF GET THAT THING AWAY FROM MY HAIR!
but no i did NOT scream that out in the middle of the place.
that would have actually been quite funny =)
well while i was getting my hair cut and straightened (read: killed and burned) i was singing in my head:
GEE AAITCH DEE IS KIIIILLING MY HAAAAAAAAAIR
yeah i know. how sad
but i was BORED and the guy was talking to me and and yeah
and while i was getting my hair doen i was thinking abuot this blog..abuot what i wo uld write and then i saw this couple in the mirror.
they were waiting and the awiting chairs are behind hte mirror so i could see them in the mirror (that didn't make any sense...)
and i'm ASSUMING that they were a couple because, well, they walked in togehter and all
but then as soon as they sat down
they both pulled out their phones and were like
doing whatever on their phones
and not even talking ot each otehr
i swaer they didn't even look at each other
an di'm like...err either they're not acouple
or...they're not even friends
cause friends would talk..
OR
they have a very...non-communication relationship?
oh well
not my problem
LOL yeah an icounted before
cause i was talking to andy and matt
and they were telling me how much i've written since the last day of school
and so i went and counted
and i've written 11 since the last day of school O_O
this being my 12th one...
man i'm weird O_O
so yeah danielle?
don't kill your hair
yeah GHD'S are acutally really awesome
but i didn't like it
sure someone told me that the s team coming off my hair is all the natural oils and stuff and it apparently means that i have healthy hair
SO THAT"S GREAT
all my healthiness and natural oils are being BURNT OFF O_O
sigh
anyways
that's my rave on ghds.
=)
good hair day
LOL whatever
it's like yeah sure it makes you LOOK good, but dude it KILLS your hair!
i mean, my hair was straightened today by the hairdresser for FREE (i think it was cause i go to the same school as his sons and he like...admires me cause i'm doing IB >__>)
and OMG i could SEE my hair STEAMING
like seriously i was like WTF GET THAT THING AWAY FROM MY HAIR!
but no i did NOT scream that out in the middle of the place.
that would have actually been quite funny =)
well while i was getting my hair cut and straightened (read: killed and burned) i was singing in my head:
GEE AAITCH DEE IS KIIIILLING MY HAAAAAAAAAIR
yeah i know. how sad
but i was BORED and the guy was talking to me and and yeah
and while i was getting my hair doen i was thinking abuot this blog..abuot what i wo uld write and then i saw this couple in the mirror.
they were waiting and the awiting chairs are behind hte mirror so i could see them in the mirror (that didn't make any sense...)
and i'm ASSUMING that they were a couple because, well, they walked in togehter and all
but then as soon as they sat down
they both pulled out their phones and were like
doing whatever on their phones
and not even talking ot each otehr
i swaer they didn't even look at each other
an di'm like...err either they're not acouple
or...they're not even friends
cause friends would talk..
OR
they have a very...non-communication relationship?
oh well
not my problem
LOL yeah an icounted before
cause i was talking to andy and matt
and they were telling me how much i've written since the last day of school
and so i went and counted
and i've written 11 since the last day of school O_O
this being my 12th one...
man i'm weird O_O
so yeah danielle?
don't kill your hair
yeah GHD'S are acutally really awesome
but i didn't like it
sure someone told me that the s team coming off my hair is all the natural oils and stuff and it apparently means that i have healthy hair
SO THAT"S GREAT
all my healthiness and natural oils are being BURNT OFF O_O
sigh
anyways
that's my rave on ghds.
=)
Monday, April 13, 2009
even angels fall
"God knows, even angels fall"
yeah it's a song
and i came across it just now when i was on youtube because i was getting a link to a song for a friend
and that song is
Someday We'll Know
you know, by Mandy Moore and that Jonothan something guy
yeah it's in A Walk to Remember (big surprise, hey? :D)
well anyway, in the "related movies" bit
there were these other movies made based on A WAlk to REmember
and there was one
about "Jamie and Landon's love" with that even angels fall song in the background
so i watched it cause i was curious and it's not that bad a movie
whoever made it (sorry, i idn'd check properly) chose some really cute scenes from th emovie
and the one i love the most is when jamie's in two places at once and she's laughing so hard.
i love her there.
she's so beautiful because somehow the director captured every little bit of happiness shown in her face and in her eyes and just. she was so happy and it was so obvious
but yea h
even angels fall, guys =)
aaah i'm soudning like mr dama with the whole
symbolism stuff
LOL
oh well. but yeah guys
even angels fall. i have more to say on that
but i ought to stop typing and go do somehting useful
my poor, neglected, old, battered keyboard.
even weetyr hates it!
=)
yeah it's a song
and i came across it just now when i was on youtube because i was getting a link to a song for a friend
and that song is
Someday We'll Know
you know, by Mandy Moore and that Jonothan something guy
yeah it's in A Walk to Remember (big surprise, hey? :D)
well anyway, in the "related movies" bit
there were these other movies made based on A WAlk to REmember
and there was one
about "Jamie and Landon's love" with that even angels fall song in the background
so i watched it cause i was curious and it's not that bad a movie
whoever made it (sorry, i idn'd check properly) chose some really cute scenes from th emovie
and the one i love the most is when jamie's in two places at once and she's laughing so hard.
i love her there.
she's so beautiful because somehow the director captured every little bit of happiness shown in her face and in her eyes and just. she was so happy and it was so obvious
but yea h
even angels fall, guys =)
aaah i'm soudning like mr dama with the whole
symbolism stuff
LOL
oh well. but yeah guys
even angels fall. i have more to say on that
but i ought to stop typing and go do somehting useful
my poor, neglected, old, battered keyboard.
even weetyr hates it!
=)
thoughts
hey hey. i was thinking before
how everyon'es just..gone O_O
like
weetyr's in melbourne and has given up msn while he's there for the ultimate relaxation ness or something like that and he's not coming back until...thursday i think
danielle's down at the river and won't be back till friday
matt's...somehwere...cricket camp or somehting? O_O or maybe that's just what i was paying him out about..LOL
umm katrina's on music camp (i'm so jealous..)
and andy's just...not here...
well anyway so i was thinking how everyone's just not here (the people who usually reaed my blogs and comment heaps and fill up my cbox) and i'm thinking, so why the hell am i writing stuff still, if i know that when they come back they'll be hell pissed off at me cause they'll have so much crap to read through?
well for starters, i'm not sure if they'll even be bothered to read all of it LOL
they'll just read the altest one and be like oh what the hell screw the rest of htem LOL
so then i thought about why i actually blog
well now the answer seems so simple
yet it took me ages to work it out LOL
well, i blog for me
i blog because i like writing and it's a good way to release my thoughts
otherwise i'd just get so filled up and then i'd be like
KA BOOOOOOOOOOOM and then never shut up because then talking would be the only way of releasing all of my thoughts
LOL ask anyone
i talk too much.
way too much.
seriously
even danielle sees me as a threat =D
and that's pretty bad
=)
but yeah.
wel i was just htinking before when i was typing all of that ^
how eveyron'es going ot be AWAY in the first week
except matt
and me
and andy
and then in the second week, eveyron'es going to be here at home
except matt and me
matt's going fishing O_O
well i'll only be gone until monday, for 4 days, so that's not that bad
but then i was like
waht the helL?!
we're missing out
it's like
playing chasey =) and once eveyrone else gets back together
me and mtat are gone
and btw does anyone know what tessa's up to?
or is she sitting at home doing nothing like andy?
OMGSH SPEAKING OF WHICH
i need to email andy and franciska
hmmm
might go do that now, and stop boring you with my thoughts. stupid thoughts =)
oh hey, dani and matt
yo uguys shoudl SO see me fly.
i think im' getting stronger now =)
i can so totally fly my whole pool length and not be collapsing
that is my achievement for these holidays
some other time i'll get my fly up to 25...maybe 50 m
soon.
not now :D
more later i think
how everyon'es just..gone O_O
like
weetyr's in melbourne and has given up msn while he's there for the ultimate relaxation ness or something like that and he's not coming back until...thursday i think
danielle's down at the river and won't be back till friday
matt's...somehwere...cricket camp or somehting? O_O or maybe that's just what i was paying him out about..LOL
umm katrina's on music camp (i'm so jealous..)
and andy's just...not here...
well anyway so i was thinking how everyone's just not here (the people who usually reaed my blogs and comment heaps and fill up my cbox) and i'm thinking, so why the hell am i writing stuff still, if i know that when they come back they'll be hell pissed off at me cause they'll have so much crap to read through?
well for starters, i'm not sure if they'll even be bothered to read all of it LOL
they'll just read the altest one and be like oh what the hell screw the rest of htem LOL
so then i thought about why i actually blog
well now the answer seems so simple
yet it took me ages to work it out LOL
well, i blog for me
i blog because i like writing and it's a good way to release my thoughts
otherwise i'd just get so filled up and then i'd be like
KA BOOOOOOOOOOOM and then never shut up because then talking would be the only way of releasing all of my thoughts
LOL ask anyone
i talk too much.
way too much.
seriously
even danielle sees me as a threat =D
and that's pretty bad
=)
but yeah.
wel i was just htinking before when i was typing all of that ^
how eveyron'es going ot be AWAY in the first week
except matt
and me
and andy
and then in the second week, eveyron'es going to be here at home
except matt and me
matt's going fishing O_O
well i'll only be gone until monday, for 4 days, so that's not that bad
but then i was like
waht the helL?!
we're missing out
it's like
playing chasey =) and once eveyrone else gets back together
me and mtat are gone
and btw does anyone know what tessa's up to?
or is she sitting at home doing nothing like andy?
OMGSH SPEAKING OF WHICH
i need to email andy and franciska
hmmm
might go do that now, and stop boring you with my thoughts. stupid thoughts =)
oh hey, dani and matt
yo uguys shoudl SO see me fly.
i think im' getting stronger now =)
i can so totally fly my whole pool length and not be collapsing
that is my achievement for these holidays
some other time i'll get my fly up to 25...maybe 50 m
soon.
not now :D
more later i think
campcampcampcamp
teehee
camp! =)
nearly there, guys
only 3 days to wait i think...
ummm
MOnday...Tuesday...Wednesday...THursday
okay dammit.
FOUR days to wait
but yeah
LOL my brothers are already packing, maybe i ought to, too?
but then what would happen is what happened before camp las tyear, and before WYD last year, and before melbourne this year. i'll have an open bag on the floor of my room and use that as my cupboard instead of my actual wardrobe.
no point in packing early, unless you're mega-excited. but atm this year for some reason i'm just not THAT estatic..
maybe my not so great group has something to do with this. but i guess im better off than thao or tuyen because i talk to everyone whereas th ey only have the few select people whom they get along with. i guess i will survive
I WILL SURVIVE HEY HEY
LOL that was for you, danielle =)
hmm i dunno this is the extreme low after the extreme hgih of the past few days
now i'm completely and utterly bored. i guess i ought to work on that to-do list of mine =)
"It's like a to-do list i have, except for my life"
guess where that's from, guys?
=P i don't think you need to have seen themovie to know where that's from.
i mean, come on. it's me..LOL
yeah i ahve a to-do list for these holidays and, well so far i've crossed off ONE thing and that was
"go shopping for camp"
LOL
i'll get there. don't you worry =)
ima get everything done before the last day of the holidays
i WILL
camp! =)
nearly there, guys
only 3 days to wait i think...
ummm
MOnday...Tuesday...Wednesday...THursday
okay dammit.
FOUR days to wait
but yeah
LOL my brothers are already packing, maybe i ought to, too?
but then what would happen is what happened before camp las tyear, and before WYD last year, and before melbourne this year. i'll have an open bag on the floor of my room and use that as my cupboard instead of my actual wardrobe.
no point in packing early, unless you're mega-excited. but atm this year for some reason i'm just not THAT estatic..
maybe my not so great group has something to do with this. but i guess im better off than thao or tuyen because i talk to everyone whereas th ey only have the few select people whom they get along with. i guess i will survive
I WILL SURVIVE HEY HEY
LOL that was for you, danielle =)
hmm i dunno this is the extreme low after the extreme hgih of the past few days
now i'm completely and utterly bored. i guess i ought to work on that to-do list of mine =)
"It's like a to-do list i have, except for my life"
guess where that's from, guys?
=P i don't think you need to have seen themovie to know where that's from.
i mean, come on. it's me..LOL
yeah i ahve a to-do list for these holidays and, well so far i've crossed off ONE thing and that was
"go shopping for camp"
LOL
i'll get there. don't you worry =)
ima get everything done before the last day of the holidays
i WILL
Saturday, April 11, 2009
deceptive
so people can be deceptive.
their faces, attitudes can be deceptive of what they're really feeling on the inside. most of the time, when i seem content, i'm really not
and vice versa.
sometimes i seem really down but really, i'm so happy i'm practically floating along with no time to get back to earth.
well anyway, i read this quote on a cupboard at my cousin's house:
"The person who is always smiling doesn't mean that he has no problems. But the smile shows that he has the ability to overcome all those problems."
well =)
there you go, Michaela Udina
yes, Micky-a was the one who said to me
no way how could YOU be struggling through life? i mean, you're pretty, you're alwasy happy, you're smart, you're the president, you're PERFECT!
i was like...honey life doens't work like that. just becaus ei'ms miling doesn't mean i'm hurting and falling apart on the inside.
she still didn't believe me
either she just couldn't believe me or she refused to. because apparently the idea of me being so...troubled is inconceivable.
ha. shows how much she knows.
so yeah =) just thought i'd let you know how powerful and true that one quote is.
just because someone is smiling doesn't mean that they are really and truly happy.
yeah doesn't mean i have no problems. but i have the strength to overcome it all, right?
yeah guys i may be small
but i am TANK =D
LOL well, emotionally, i know i am
because, well although i crakced majorly this term, i could carry on?
i know people who fall down, and just can't get back up again.
something small happens that triggers it, and they're stuck in the never-ending whirls of self-pity and can't get up to move on.
"A champion is someone who can get up after falling down"
something like that. see?
my smile doesn't necessarily say,
"Hey, look at me, i'm carefree!!"
that would be lying
my smile says
"Hey, i can cope with my life, no matter how c rappy it gets at times"
there's a difference between those two smiles, on anyone's faces. just look out for the message that they are relaying wi th their smiles, because sometimes,
well a LOT of the time, people are misjudged, misread. because other people are just not open-minded enough. seriously guys
be open-minded about things in life. it will help you a LOT
so yeah.
read the smile right.
don't let deception get you
their faces, attitudes can be deceptive of what they're really feeling on the inside. most of the time, when i seem content, i'm really not
and vice versa.
sometimes i seem really down but really, i'm so happy i'm practically floating along with no time to get back to earth.
well anyway, i read this quote on a cupboard at my cousin's house:
"The person who is always smiling doesn't mean that he has no problems. But the smile shows that he has the ability to overcome all those problems."
well =)
there you go, Michaela Udina
yes, Micky-a was the one who said to me
no way how could YOU be struggling through life? i mean, you're pretty, you're alwasy happy, you're smart, you're the president, you're PERFECT!
i was like...honey life doens't work like that. just becaus ei'ms miling doesn't mean i'm hurting and falling apart on the inside.
she still didn't believe me
either she just couldn't believe me or she refused to. because apparently the idea of me being so...troubled is inconceivable.
ha. shows how much she knows.
so yeah =) just thought i'd let you know how powerful and true that one quote is.
just because someone is smiling doesn't mean that they are really and truly happy.
yeah doesn't mean i have no problems. but i have the strength to overcome it all, right?
yeah guys i may be small
but i am TANK =D
LOL well, emotionally, i know i am
because, well although i crakced majorly this term, i could carry on?
i know people who fall down, and just can't get back up again.
something small happens that triggers it, and they're stuck in the never-ending whirls of self-pity and can't get up to move on.
"A champion is someone who can get up after falling down"
something like that. see?
my smile doesn't necessarily say,
"Hey, look at me, i'm carefree!!"
that would be lying
my smile says
"Hey, i can cope with my life, no matter how c rappy it gets at times"
there's a difference between those two smiles, on anyone's faces. just look out for the message that they are relaying wi th their smiles, because sometimes,
well a LOT of the time, people are misjudged, misread. because other people are just not open-minded enough. seriously guys
be open-minded about things in life. it will help you a LOT
so yeah.
read the smile right.
don't let deception get you
to danielle
this is my response to your query
the reason i can't reply in the boxy thingo is because of thest upid word limit
and i know that i have a lot to say
well, more than 200 characters and i hate it how i would have to cut off and continue and you'd ahve to read from the bottom to the top and make it all confusing.
so anyway
no, you guys don't actually hold me back
it's everything else
it's me holding myself back
it's caution holdning myself back
and in small portions, it's also those who love me because they are so protective of me
they don't want to let me go
i don't want to let myself go
i mean, what would happen if i went out and did every single thing that i wanted to do?
what if every time i said to you guys, yeah i'd like to do this
and i actually went and did it?
well that wuoldn't be nice cause i'd be all broken and tired all the time and just..
it's just not possible right now
but one day
one day you and i will be out there conquering the world however we want
with noone to hold us back,
when noone can say "no, you can't do this, you're not old enough"
we'll be our own guardians.
that's what i mean by people holding me back
so no t neccessarily a bad thing
more a good thing than a bad thing =)
hope that made sense
the reason i can't reply in the boxy thingo is because of thest upid word limit
and i know that i have a lot to say
well, more than 200 characters and i hate it how i would have to cut off and continue and you'd ahve to read from the bottom to the top and make it all confusing.
so anyway
no, you guys don't actually hold me back
it's everything else
it's me holding myself back
it's caution holdning myself back
and in small portions, it's also those who love me because they are so protective of me
they don't want to let me go
i don't want to let myself go
i mean, what would happen if i went out and did every single thing that i wanted to do?
what if every time i said to you guys, yeah i'd like to do this
and i actually went and did it?
well that wuoldn't be nice cause i'd be all broken and tired all the time and just..
it's just not possible right now
but one day
one day you and i will be out there conquering the world however we want
with noone to hold us back,
when noone can say "no, you can't do this, you're not old enough"
we'll be our own guardians.
that's what i mean by people holding me back
so no t neccessarily a bad thing
more a good thing than a bad thing =)
hope that made sense
Friday, April 10, 2009
gravity
"Do you remember the time when you told me you hated gravity because you wanted to jump off the roof and fly?"
"i was so so angry with you when you made me come down from the roof"
well, something like that from A Walk To Remember (the movie)
aww i was laughing with emotion. utter emotion and i was like laughing and crying at the bittersweetness of it all. the whole movie is so sad. but there are bits that are so sweet because, well because they're just so sweet you want to giggle in delight. sigh. even though i was watching it by myself, i was having th etime of mylife with that movie. so beautiful. and like i said, bittersweet.
gravity is the equivelant of all the forces that are holding me back at the moment. not quite sure what they are, but whatever they are, they are hindering me from spreading my wings and flying. i still haven't discovered my true potential yet because i haven't had the chance to. i'm being so restricted by everyone and everything. you people are way too overprotective =)
but i would like to, one day spread my wings and come back with my feathers all fluffed up and of course, i'll come back injured and proud. injured but forever proud with my chin up. i'll say to you all, i can do THIS =D..but then i can't do THIS...but i learnt that all on my journey, even while i was being hassled by the rough turbulent winds i know what i'm capable of.
but i dont know that yet...so one of these ydays, hey?
wlel i just wathced that part of themovie aagain and i was laughing at how sweet it is
=)
well that's all i have to say right now =D
"i was so so angry with you when you made me come down from the roof"
well, something like that from A Walk To Remember (the movie)
aww i was laughing with emotion. utter emotion and i was like laughing and crying at the bittersweetness of it all. the whole movie is so sad. but there are bits that are so sweet because, well because they're just so sweet you want to giggle in delight. sigh. even though i was watching it by myself, i was having th etime of mylife with that movie. so beautiful. and like i said, bittersweet.
gravity is the equivelant of all the forces that are holding me back at the moment. not quite sure what they are, but whatever they are, they are hindering me from spreading my wings and flying. i still haven't discovered my true potential yet because i haven't had the chance to. i'm being so restricted by everyone and everything. you people are way too overprotective =)
but i would like to, one day spread my wings and come back with my feathers all fluffed up and of course, i'll come back injured and proud. injured but forever proud with my chin up. i'll say to you all, i can do THIS =D..but then i can't do THIS...but i learnt that all on my journey, even while i was being hassled by the rough turbulent winds i know what i'm capable of.
but i dont know that yet...so one of these ydays, hey?
wlel i just wathced that part of themovie aagain and i was laughing at how sweet it is
=)
well that's all i have to say right now =D
enid blyton
have you ever read "The Magic Faraway Tree" by enid blyton?
dude man that's like..wow if you haven't read it
...READ IT! or i will smash your face in
seriously
so anyways
i love enid blyton and the only other reason that the title is anywhere near relevant ot what i'm going to write is because my train of thought reminded me of that book.
so at the very top of the magic faraway tree, there is a ladder, which leads up to a hole in a mass of clouds. this mass of clouds is an everchanging world. it is like a biiiiiiiiiiig circle of idffernet worlds, side by side, and they rotate every now and then and the faraway tree is just one of the many doorways into it. and wow each world is sooo fascinating =) each world only comes once in a LONG time because tehre are a LOT of worlds to rotate around, and soemtimes a wolrd may stay for much longer than another. and every time the worlds spin around, there is a greaaaaat shaking and i LOVE IT.
now i'm rambling on about this because that's what i love. the fact that fictional books can take you out of your own world, no matter how troubled and broken it is, into a magical land where troubles are non-existent. even better are those books that have you so engaged with the character's dilemas that you forget your own. i love it. and that's why, when just now i was talking to thien and he told me that he had not one single work of ficiton in his house a t the time.
i went into shock. lietrally. i told him not to talk to me.
why?
because, dear friends, i have a mere 200+ works of fiction in my own room. not to count the massive pile of books in my desk...and the many more in the library bag. each is a world of its own, waiting to be discovered and devoured by me. each one will take me away from my own troubled world into a world where, well, where my life is carefree and i am transported from character to character, able to feel the emotions of every single person in that book. and when the story comes to an end, i am left with a feeling of triumph, that i have conquered yet another book, i have survived yet another troubling world along with the main character, and hopfully somehow have helped the main character get through his/her troubles to reach the happy ending.
like i said to thien
the reason why i love having so many books in my room, where i sleep is as follows
well, firs tof all i'm making my own library...so collecting books from everywhere is a good start =)
another, more personal and meaningful reason is because it is very comforting tokow that i have over 200 fantasy worlds that i can escape to at any given time when life seems to be overwhelming. whenever i feel like i just can't copy anymore i escape behind a book into a surreal world where my troubles dont' exist.
i once told mr dama that i was only ever truly happy with my nose stuck in abook. he then chided me for reading in public, in front of him while he was tr ying to talk to me. well i'm sorry if i didnt hear a single word he said! he clearly didnt' realise tat i was in my zone and that i was unreachable, off in my fanstasy world. but then, as magda then said, the reason that i read is to escape, even at the cost of time, my grades, wahtever. dont' you sometimes get the feeling that your happines is to come first? yeahh...
well sometimes it comes down to how good the book you are reading is, or how beautiful the piece of music your'e listening to. other times it depends on how well you can block out the world.
right now, my world is happy enough
i'm basically floating through life becuase i'm happy most of the time
and the rest of the time im's tressing
but after about 3 hours of solid working, i feel a lot better because it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. those times are the best times for reading because i am able to plough my way thruogh the entire book (or large portions of it) withou a single thought about how disorganised and stressful my life can be.
i remember the Book Week theme for 2004 was "Doorways" hell yeah.
a book is just a doorway disguised as a bunch of pages and words. why? because it is the doorway to another w orld. to a nother life. to another way of thinking. it opens your eyes to new ways of seeing life and jsut about everything around you.
i also remember reading a poster eveyr single time i walked past my primary school library (which was at leat 4 times a day for about 3 years at SJH =D)
it said:
A book is a present that can be opened over and over again.
ha. very true guys
to be honest, i love anyone who gives me a book for my birthday, or as as present, even if it's not that great abook. why? because you've just given me another doorway, another escape route out of my life. so thank you to you if you've ever given me a book =)
tip: if you want to please me even more...ask me what book i'd like before getting me somethign random =D
i guess that's all i have to say about my books. i love them. and i'm sorry if i lost you
dude man that's like..wow if you haven't read it
...READ IT! or i will smash your face in
seriously
so anyways
i love enid blyton and the only other reason that the title is anywhere near relevant ot what i'm going to write is because my train of thought reminded me of that book.
so at the very top of the magic faraway tree, there is a ladder, which leads up to a hole in a mass of clouds. this mass of clouds is an everchanging world. it is like a biiiiiiiiiiig circle of idffernet worlds, side by side, and they rotate every now and then and the faraway tree is just one of the many doorways into it. and wow each world is sooo fascinating =) each world only comes once in a LONG time because tehre are a LOT of worlds to rotate around, and soemtimes a wolrd may stay for much longer than another. and every time the worlds spin around, there is a greaaaaat shaking and i LOVE IT.
now i'm rambling on about this because that's what i love. the fact that fictional books can take you out of your own world, no matter how troubled and broken it is, into a magical land where troubles are non-existent. even better are those books that have you so engaged with the character's dilemas that you forget your own. i love it. and that's why, when just now i was talking to thien and he told me that he had not one single work of ficiton in his house a t the time.
i went into shock. lietrally. i told him not to talk to me.
why?
because, dear friends, i have a mere 200+ works of fiction in my own room. not to count the massive pile of books in my desk...and the many more in the library bag. each is a world of its own, waiting to be discovered and devoured by me. each one will take me away from my own troubled world into a world where, well, where my life is carefree and i am transported from character to character, able to feel the emotions of every single person in that book. and when the story comes to an end, i am left with a feeling of triumph, that i have conquered yet another book, i have survived yet another troubling world along with the main character, and hopfully somehow have helped the main character get through his/her troubles to reach the happy ending.
like i said to thien
the reason why i love having so many books in my room, where i sleep is as follows
well, firs tof all i'm making my own library...so collecting books from everywhere is a good start =)
another, more personal and meaningful reason is because it is very comforting tokow that i have over 200 fantasy worlds that i can escape to at any given time when life seems to be overwhelming. whenever i feel like i just can't copy anymore i escape behind a book into a surreal world where my troubles dont' exist.
i once told mr dama that i was only ever truly happy with my nose stuck in abook. he then chided me for reading in public, in front of him while he was tr ying to talk to me. well i'm sorry if i didnt hear a single word he said! he clearly didnt' realise tat i was in my zone and that i was unreachable, off in my fanstasy world. but then, as magda then said, the reason that i read is to escape, even at the cost of time, my grades, wahtever. dont' you sometimes get the feeling that your happines is to come first? yeahh...
well sometimes it comes down to how good the book you are reading is, or how beautiful the piece of music your'e listening to. other times it depends on how well you can block out the world.
right now, my world is happy enough
i'm basically floating through life becuase i'm happy most of the time
and the rest of the time im's tressing
but after about 3 hours of solid working, i feel a lot better because it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. those times are the best times for reading because i am able to plough my way thruogh the entire book (or large portions of it) withou a single thought about how disorganised and stressful my life can be.
i remember the Book Week theme for 2004 was "Doorways" hell yeah.
a book is just a doorway disguised as a bunch of pages and words. why? because it is the doorway to another w orld. to a nother life. to another way of thinking. it opens your eyes to new ways of seeing life and jsut about everything around you.
i also remember reading a poster eveyr single time i walked past my primary school library (which was at leat 4 times a day for about 3 years at SJH =D)
it said:
A book is a present that can be opened over and over again.
ha. very true guys
to be honest, i love anyone who gives me a book for my birthday, or as as present, even if it's not that great abook. why? because you've just given me another doorway, another escape route out of my life. so thank you to you if you've ever given me a book =)
tip: if you want to please me even more...ask me what book i'd like before getting me somethign random =D
i guess that's all i have to say about my books. i love them. and i'm sorry if i lost you
searching
my eyes swept over my surroundings. no, i was not looking for him in particular. i was taking a glance around me. okay, that was a lie. yes i was looking for him. but not his familiar form. no, i was looking for the one who had gone missing from that form. i was trying to see right through his physical form to the one inside, to see where the person i knew had gone. see, all that i know is left now is his body, his physical appearance, and something else pretending to be him. what happened to the one i am so familiar with? he's gone. the real him is gone. his body's just being inhabited by some alien soul.
dude that was the weirdest thing i've ever written
but it's true. maybe i didn't write it in the best possible way, but the idea still stands.
when i'm looking for someone. or looking AT someone. i may not neccessarily be looking for something or someone that can be found. sometimes, you're looking right at a person but you still dont' know where they are, or where they've gone. or even WHEN they went away. they're still there, physically, but mentally, emotionally, spiritually, they're somewhere a million miles away. off in space, wondering and wandering. that's what i do sometimes, i seem to just leave my physical form behind and travel off into space, dreaming and thinking about things. and getting a nice view of my life from afar, from an objective perspective. sometimes, though i'm still biased in the way i think even if i'm trying to put myself out of my own position. i'm still biased to the ones i love, and still think maliciously of those whom i don't particularly like. i guess that's just human. yeah. love does that to you. no matter what "type" of love it is, it's still love. and it still does that to you!
even if it's just love for a friend, or a group of friends, you'll still be biased towards them, and feel the need to defend them when they need your help. sometimes it's family love, where you have to stand up for your family member even if it'd kill you. oh yeah, and then there's the love that weetyr's always talking about. the love love. you know, the love for that someone special? yeah. that's the worst love to be blinded by. that type of love makes you so biased towards taht one person and you just can't help it. sometimes, it even blinds you compeltely to the truth. i mean. for you guys out there, try not the blinded too harshly. and for you girls, well, don't let a guy's good looks completely bowl you over, because most of the time, personality plays a much bigger part. and if you're blinded by love towards someone, they can manipulate you so badly...
ugh that's not what i reALLLY wanted to say guys
just that, yeah love blinds pe ople
err
and the searching thing up there? well, the idea is that things aren't as they appear. just because someone's standing right in front of me doesn't mean that they're not really there with me. like, for instance, if someone's standing and talking to me, but their heart is not in the conversation, well, i guess that's when you can say that that person's not really there. and that the person who is standing in front of you is just the shell. but the thing is, you need what's on the inside more than what's on the outside. so that's where this whole searching thing comes into play. sometimes it seems like i'm just searching for the person. but realistically, i'd be looking for the person inside. the soul that defines the person for who they really are.
so yeah. =)
dude that was the weirdest thing i've ever written
but it's true. maybe i didn't write it in the best possible way, but the idea still stands.
when i'm looking for someone. or looking AT someone. i may not neccessarily be looking for something or someone that can be found. sometimes, you're looking right at a person but you still dont' know where they are, or where they've gone. or even WHEN they went away. they're still there, physically, but mentally, emotionally, spiritually, they're somewhere a million miles away. off in space, wondering and wandering. that's what i do sometimes, i seem to just leave my physical form behind and travel off into space, dreaming and thinking about things. and getting a nice view of my life from afar, from an objective perspective. sometimes, though i'm still biased in the way i think even if i'm trying to put myself out of my own position. i'm still biased to the ones i love, and still think maliciously of those whom i don't particularly like. i guess that's just human. yeah. love does that to you. no matter what "type" of love it is, it's still love. and it still does that to you!
even if it's just love for a friend, or a group of friends, you'll still be biased towards them, and feel the need to defend them when they need your help. sometimes it's family love, where you have to stand up for your family member even if it'd kill you. oh yeah, and then there's the love that weetyr's always talking about. the love love. you know, the love for that someone special? yeah. that's the worst love to be blinded by. that type of love makes you so biased towards taht one person and you just can't help it. sometimes, it even blinds you compeltely to the truth. i mean. for you guys out there, try not the blinded too harshly. and for you girls, well, don't let a guy's good looks completely bowl you over, because most of the time, personality plays a much bigger part. and if you're blinded by love towards someone, they can manipulate you so badly...
ugh that's not what i reALLLY wanted to say guys
just that, yeah love blinds pe ople
err
and the searching thing up there? well, the idea is that things aren't as they appear. just because someone's standing right in front of me doesn't mean that they're not really there with me. like, for instance, if someone's standing and talking to me, but their heart is not in the conversation, well, i guess that's when you can say that that person's not really there. and that the person who is standing in front of you is just the shell. but the thing is, you need what's on the inside more than what's on the outside. so that's where this whole searching thing comes into play. sometimes it seems like i'm just searching for the person. but realistically, i'd be looking for the person inside. the soul that defines the person for who they really are.
so yeah. =)
Thursday, April 9, 2009
one last note
guys im' here to outsmart IB
so bring it on
an dple ase remind me if iever get sidetrakced again
because i'm here to BRING DOWN IB
so yeah
don't let me slack off again please
i've set a goal for myself. and i'm going to get there.
so bring it, IB
so bring it on
an dple ase remind me if iever get sidetrakced again
because i'm here to BRING DOWN IB
so yeah
don't let me slack off again please
i've set a goal for myself. and i'm going to get there.
so bring it, IB
For Weetyr
well i was reading "Pillow Talk" (AAHAHA at the suss title)
and i came across this...part. and i thought of weetyr. because it's the same kidna stuff that he usually blogs about. and i thought that i'd let him know. because it'd give him something to chew on while he is AWAY in MELBOURNE.
so here we go:
Extract from "Pillow Talk" by Freya North
Part 1 was then. Part 2 is now.
Part 3 weds love, lust and friendship, weaves them into a gossamer safety net that enables life to seem easy. Part 3 is a design for life which flows into for ever. How many people are lucky enough to make it to part 3?
well weetyr, there's something for you to think about =)
and possibly blog about. because like i said, this is the kind of stuff that you usually write about because we've all been saying how yo ualwasy write about love and relationships and stuff like that. so yeah =)
it's true, isn't i?
not only is it very very true that not many people are able to get to this "Part 3" of love. the part where everything is perfect. when you seem to float along in time because life seems completely carefree once you know that you're with the right person. but all the same, you've got to be slightly cautious. because the person/peoplew ho are closest to you will be the ones to hurt yo uthe m,ost. i'm not saying tha thtey WILl al lhurt you at some stage, i'msaying that if they DO hurt you, they know you the best. they have the best ways of hurting you. they know what really hurts you. and if they DO by chance (please heaven forbid) decided for some reason to turn against you, they will hurt you more than anyone else ever could. so
i guess there's two sides to the story. but the better side is more dominant. so yes, do strive to this "Part 3" but also please be careful. Life's too...i don't want to say that life's too short because it really isn't, but let's just say that opportunities for this type of love don't always come along and if you don't reach out and take whatever opportunities come your way, well. well there you go. you've just missed out on a potential "Part 3" of love relationship, where everything is perfect.
yeah sure, be cautios, think smart but dont let opportunities pass
peter read this to me the other day:
"You will miss 100% of the shots you don't take"
damn straight, that.
so guys yeah
play it smart
outsmart life
and dont' miss any opportunities
and i came across this...part. and i thought of weetyr. because it's the same kidna stuff that he usually blogs about. and i thought that i'd let him know. because it'd give him something to chew on while he is AWAY in MELBOURNE.
so here we go:
Extract from "Pillow Talk" by Freya North
Part 1 was then. Part 2 is now.
Part 3 weds love, lust and friendship, weaves them into a gossamer safety net that enables life to seem easy. Part 3 is a design for life which flows into for ever. How many people are lucky enough to make it to part 3?
well weetyr, there's something for you to think about =)
and possibly blog about. because like i said, this is the kind of stuff that you usually write about because we've all been saying how yo ualwasy write about love and relationships and stuff like that. so yeah =)
it's true, isn't i?
not only is it very very true that not many people are able to get to this "Part 3" of love. the part where everything is perfect. when you seem to float along in time because life seems completely carefree once you know that you're with the right person. but all the same, you've got to be slightly cautious. because the person/peoplew ho are closest to you will be the ones to hurt yo uthe m,ost. i'm not saying tha thtey WILl al lhurt you at some stage, i'msaying that if they DO hurt you, they know you the best. they have the best ways of hurting you. they know what really hurts you. and if they DO by chance (please heaven forbid) decided for some reason to turn against you, they will hurt you more than anyone else ever could. so
i guess there's two sides to the story. but the better side is more dominant. so yes, do strive to this "Part 3" but also please be careful. Life's too...i don't want to say that life's too short because it really isn't, but let's just say that opportunities for this type of love don't always come along and if you don't reach out and take whatever opportunities come your way, well. well there you go. you've just missed out on a potential "Part 3" of love relationship, where everything is perfect.
yeah sure, be cautios, think smart but dont let opportunities pass
peter read this to me the other day:
"You will miss 100% of the shots you don't take"
damn straight, that.
so guys yeah
play it smart
outsmart life
and dont' miss any opportunities
70th
well t his is the 70th post. just thought i'd mention that because just before i only had 69, and then i told danielle and andy and matt and yeah i reminded myself of mel's slight immaturity when it comes to that number. so i thought i ought to change it.
um yeah that didn't make sense
anyways
so.
last day of term 1
last day of term 1
doesnt' feel like it though,
i mean how gay
i mean IT DIDN"T EVEN RAIN!
that's really quite gay
and evne though we all walked home today completely and utterly dejected and pissed off because of crappy report cards, it still didn't feel like the end of term. even though eveyrone was going ou t to town and stuff, and we were all walking home as usual, there was none of the usual hugging and "naaww i'll miss youuu" "see you next term!" stuff. seriously. i was hugged once today. and it wasn't even a proper hug. it was like a...err umm a...hmmm. it was thomas putting his arm around my shoulder and saying naawww well done gia yen. and that was it. none of the usual yeah i'll see yo unext term crap. why? maybe because noone else felt like it was the end of term either. and it wasn't just me.
well everyone was officially pissed off at report cards
why? because yaer 10's much harder than what people expected. after year 9. man year 9 was such a lovely time. we did practically nothing. but anyways the reason that I didn't get straight A's is simply because stupid IB has been taking its toll on me. but i dunno, hopefully by next term i'll actuallly get my act togetr (dama's words) and work a LOT harder so i can pay more attention to the subjects that i'm NOT getting A's in. like stupid PE and music. music. i got a B. in Music. like WHAT THE HELL!? hmm.. that's a first. a MAJOR first.
iv'e only ever gotten A's in music. so what's different this year? mr holly. stupid mr holly. i don't know how he expects people to improve their work when he doesnt'e ven tell us what we've done wrong. i mean if he just ONCE explained to me what a freaking dimished 5th below E flat is, then MAYBE i mgiht be able to learn from my mistakes? oh well, i don't even know if i'm doing music next year at the moment. ensemble playing for sure.
but no theory. esriously. pissingme off much.
well i don't think i have much more to say.
this is becoming a stupid and pointless blog. lemme start fresh.
um yeah that didn't make sense
anyways
so.
last day of term 1
last day of term 1
doesnt' feel like it though,
i mean how gay
i mean IT DIDN"T EVEN RAIN!
that's really quite gay
and evne though we all walked home today completely and utterly dejected and pissed off because of crappy report cards, it still didn't feel like the end of term. even though eveyrone was going ou t to town and stuff, and we were all walking home as usual, there was none of the usual hugging and "naaww i'll miss youuu" "see you next term!" stuff. seriously. i was hugged once today. and it wasn't even a proper hug. it was like a...err umm a...hmmm. it was thomas putting his arm around my shoulder and saying naawww well done gia yen. and that was it. none of the usual yeah i'll see yo unext term crap. why? maybe because noone else felt like it was the end of term either. and it wasn't just me.
well everyone was officially pissed off at report cards
why? because yaer 10's much harder than what people expected. after year 9. man year 9 was such a lovely time. we did practically nothing. but anyways the reason that I didn't get straight A's is simply because stupid IB has been taking its toll on me. but i dunno, hopefully by next term i'll actuallly get my act togetr (dama's words) and work a LOT harder so i can pay more attention to the subjects that i'm NOT getting A's in. like stupid PE and music. music. i got a B. in Music. like WHAT THE HELL!? hmm.. that's a first. a MAJOR first.
iv'e only ever gotten A's in music. so what's different this year? mr holly. stupid mr holly. i don't know how he expects people to improve their work when he doesnt'e ven tell us what we've done wrong. i mean if he just ONCE explained to me what a freaking dimished 5th below E flat is, then MAYBE i mgiht be able to learn from my mistakes? oh well, i don't even know if i'm doing music next year at the moment. ensemble playing for sure.
but no theory. esriously. pissingme off much.
well i don't think i have much more to say.
this is becoming a stupid and pointless blog. lemme start fresh.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
ROFL.
hey hey LOL i just remembred somehting..
MS ANGLEY
LOL AHAHAHAHA
music & lyrics
her scores
her stupid CLAPPING
DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DA
I"M A BELIEVER
woooot! she's goooooooone :D:D:D:D
she better not come back like mr clifton O_O
*body freezes up*
omgcan'tbelieveijustremindedmyselfofthatterrifyingmoment
omgomgomgogmogmogmog
*hyperventilates*
well he's gone now, at least
ugh
stupid KAT
i had to hide with the INTOS because he was watching me
and STUPID KAT
GOSH
MS ANGLEY
LOL AHAHAHAHA
music & lyrics
her scores
her stupid CLAPPING
DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DA DA
I"M A BELIEVER
woooot! she's goooooooone :D:D:D:D
she better not come back like mr clifton O_O
*body freezes up*
omgcan'tbelieveijustremindedmyselfofthatterrifyingmoment
omgomgomgogmogmogmog
*hyperventilates*
well he's gone now, at least
ugh
stupid KAT
i had to hide with the INTOS because he was watching me
and STUPID KAT
GOSH
okay. who took it?
okay. take 2. this is the second time i've typed up this blog because the first attmept was stupid. and lame. and gay.
WELL i wish i was as good with my hands as weetyr. man i would not waste ANY time typing. and i really should be doing my Pythag task right now..
but oh well. screw those IB people. hate them ALL.
so who took it?
whoever took it...we'll hunt you down and stab you to death. who took away all of our time together? who has robbed us of our first term of year 10? i mean, seriously. where did it all go? seems like we just started year 10. and now. a whole 11 weeks have passed. li ke, swimming's finished. LOL i can remember each and eveyr one of our comps. LOL LOL AAHAHAHA thomas and his cricket box ;) mr z's conquered. so much has happened this term
WE WON THAT DEBATE against stupid PAC =)
LOL that was awesome. that really was. what else have we achieved this term?
oh yeah, i finished my cushion FINALLY
umm
danielle finally realised that Bflat really DOES exist.
she marked our science desk with FCGDAEB
FATCATGOTDRUNKATEVERYBAR
umm....LOL weetyr landed an awesome part in the musical..with mel ;)
we went sports day shopping and GOLD CAME SECOND (cough, cough. danielle please dont' start)
andy found a website entailing all of his stupid blue speech.
weetyr started this stupid chin flicking thing
weetyr and matt keep pulling my hair
matt revived his rubber band thing and taught sutpid vien O_O
and then weetyr has renamed me Yenny
matt calls me Yen
i beat andy at jap again =)
susan LOL let's not go there :D
umm i'm on good terms with everyone. i've made more friends, i now know just about everyone on year 10 ss. and aaaaaaaaand i have consumed too many muffins to count
there have been mental breakdowns
there have been endless bouts of tears
there have been relationships
break ups
swimming comps
yaaaaayy
i still CAN NOT believe that stupid CONCORDIA. JUST BECAUSE THEY HAD LIKE THREE TIMES AS MANY PEOPLE. GOSH.
Ms. Wilson's office is now like my second home..=)
mr fawcett has now seen me fully stressed.
the SRC has now known to fear me when i'm holding a pen (LOL)
danielle is has stacked it too many times to mention
we have deafened more people than really neccessary
we watched a wa lk to remember together
we cried together
we baked a CAKE togetehr!
i RODE A MASSIVE BIKE
we watched Twilight, Bride Wars, He's just not that into you
we predicted what would happen in each of those movies LOL
sigh
what else did we do together this term?
oh yeah btw i'm not cuonting the times when you gus have all just crashed at my house...cough cough daniellea ndw eetyr
oh and that time when i took adnielle with me just to keep her social life alive =)
we hvae an awesome band at school
everythin'gs good
and now
we've really got to make the most of things, guys cause there are only 3 terms left
of year 10.
wow i could go on forever about the things we've done this term
LOL ME AND WEETYR LOL
street smart hing
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
uhm...what else what else?
OH LOl we went to the pool =)
that was hilaorus
i reckon that was the first and only time when danielle, matt and i have gone to magill pool to have FUN
because eveyr other time
grrr damn sam and his training
LOL danielle's lack of neurotransmitters =)
KATRINA'S BDAY PRESENTS
wow guys
we're so awesome =)
anyway
ima save the rest for another day
gotta do stupid Pythag now
i shoudlnt have left it this late
someone should have made me do it before =)
oh well it doesnt' seem THAT hard...i don't think
i think ilve already figured out all the nitty gritty details and now just gotta put it all together. it's really not as hard as what axel's been going on about..no offence mate =)
anyways. more later. maybe
WELL i wish i was as good with my hands as weetyr. man i would not waste ANY time typing. and i really should be doing my Pythag task right now..
but oh well. screw those IB people. hate them ALL.
so who took it?
whoever took it...we'll hunt you down and stab you to death. who took away all of our time together? who has robbed us of our first term of year 10? i mean, seriously. where did it all go? seems like we just started year 10. and now. a whole 11 weeks have passed. li ke, swimming's finished. LOL i can remember each and eveyr one of our comps. LOL LOL AAHAHAHA thomas and his cricket box ;) mr z's conquered. so much has happened this term
WE WON THAT DEBATE against stupid PAC =)
LOL that was awesome. that really was. what else have we achieved this term?
oh yeah, i finished my cushion FINALLY
umm
danielle finally realised that Bflat really DOES exist.
she marked our science desk with FCGDAEB
FATCATGOTDRUNKATEVERYBAR
umm....LOL weetyr landed an awesome part in the musical..with mel ;)
we went sports day shopping and GOLD CAME SECOND (cough, cough. danielle please dont' start)
andy found a website entailing all of his stupid blue speech.
weetyr started this stupid chin flicking thing
weetyr and matt keep pulling my hair
matt revived his rubber band thing and taught sutpid vien O_O
and then weetyr has renamed me Yenny
matt calls me Yen
i beat andy at jap again =)
susan LOL let's not go there :D
umm i'm on good terms with everyone. i've made more friends, i now know just about everyone on year 10 ss. and aaaaaaaaand i have consumed too many muffins to count
there have been mental breakdowns
there have been endless bouts of tears
there have been relationships
break ups
swimming comps
yaaaaayy
i still CAN NOT believe that stupid CONCORDIA. JUST BECAUSE THEY HAD LIKE THREE TIMES AS MANY PEOPLE. GOSH.
Ms. Wilson's office is now like my second home..=)
mr fawcett has now seen me fully stressed.
the SRC has now known to fear me when i'm holding a pen (LOL)
danielle is has stacked it too many times to mention
we have deafened more people than really neccessary
we watched a wa lk to remember together
we cried together
we baked a CAKE togetehr!
i RODE A MASSIVE BIKE
we watched Twilight, Bride Wars, He's just not that into you
we predicted what would happen in each of those movies LOL
sigh
what else did we do together this term?
oh yeah btw i'm not cuonting the times when you gus have all just crashed at my house...cough cough daniellea ndw eetyr
oh and that time when i took adnielle with me just to keep her social life alive =)
we hvae an awesome band at school
everythin'gs good
and now
we've really got to make the most of things, guys cause there are only 3 terms left
of year 10.
wow i could go on forever about the things we've done this term
LOL ME AND WEETYR LOL
street smart hing
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
uhm...what else what else?
OH LOl we went to the pool =)
that was hilaorus
i reckon that was the first and only time when danielle, matt and i have gone to magill pool to have FUN
because eveyr other time
grrr damn sam and his training
LOL danielle's lack of neurotransmitters =)
KATRINA'S BDAY PRESENTS
wow guys
we're so awesome =)
anyway
ima save the rest for another day
gotta do stupid Pythag now
i shoudlnt have left it this late
someone should have made me do it before =)
oh well it doesnt' seem THAT hard...i don't think
i think ilve already figured out all the nitty gritty details and now just gotta put it all together. it's really not as hard as what axel's been going on about..no offence mate =)
anyways. more later. maybe
Monday, April 6, 2009
"Pillow Talk" by Freya North
okay, so it's a suss title
AAHAHAHA
but yeah anyways
OOOOOMG
GUYS GUESS WHAAAAAAAT
I WAS READING THIS BOOK
AND I WAS LIKE OMGONGOMGONGNG HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE!
so i thought i'd quote it
it's so awesome =)
here it is:
btw, this is targetted at danielle, andy, weetyr, julian and other music freakos out there who read this blog
"Chapter Four
'Would you say that rhythm is the soul of music, sir?'
Arlo regarded his pupil, unable to keep an afftectionate smile at bay. He remembered being jus like Nathan. A keen fourteen-year-old, happy to study but also keep to add personal philosphy to the dry curriculum. God, what a georgous day it was. Warm, too.
'I mean, Sir Savidge, sir,' Nathan said. 'Rhythm is the soul of music - wouldn't you say?' he repeated, dragging his teacher's gaze away from the view outside. 'But sir, if you put that kind of thing in your GCSE do you think the judges give you better marks?'
Judges. Sirs. Arlo changed his sigh into another smile and focused on the boy. 'I think the examiners would mark you higher if you said something along the lines of rhythm being the lifeblood of music, Nathan. Think of blood, all of you - how it pulses, how it pumps. If blood doesn't pump - if it ceases to pulse around our bodies - what are we?'
The class was silent.
'Come on, guys, what are we?'
The class loved it when their teacher called them 'guys'.
'Fish?' offered Lars
'Fish?' said his teacher.
'Fish are cold-blooded,' Lars muttered while the class began to snigger. 'Isn't that the same thing?'
'No no no,' Arlo said, thinking he ought to check it anyway with Mr Rose the biology teacher. 'I'm talking physically and metaphysically. Come on, guys, if our blood isn't being pumped then it's not pulsing around our body - then what are we?'
The boys gawped at him.
'We are dead!' he said.
There was a murmur, a gasp or two. Schoolboys love the word 'dead'.
'So, if the rhythm is the lifeblood of music, it must mean it is at the heart of it. Music needs rhythm to breathe its life into the listener - don't you think?'
Don't you agree, guys?
Rhythm is at the heart of music. Rhythm is the lifeblood of music. Music needs rhythm to breathe its life into the listener
wow.
well it would all work out if i was good at rhythm...
grr but yeah
just wanted to share with you that all-powerful music quote because, well beacuse it's about music and i was just thinking about how danielle was blogging about lyrics and stuff. so there you go. music. lovely =)
AAHAHAHA
but yeah anyways
OOOOOMG
GUYS GUESS WHAAAAAAAT
I WAS READING THIS BOOK
AND I WAS LIKE OMGONGOMGONGNG HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE!
so i thought i'd quote it
it's so awesome =)
here it is:
btw, this is targetted at danielle, andy, weetyr, julian and other music freakos out there who read this blog
"Chapter Four
'Would you say that rhythm is the soul of music, sir?'
Arlo regarded his pupil, unable to keep an afftectionate smile at bay. He remembered being jus like Nathan. A keen fourteen-year-old, happy to study but also keep to add personal philosphy to the dry curriculum. God, what a georgous day it was. Warm, too.
'I mean, Sir Savidge, sir,' Nathan said. 'Rhythm is the soul of music - wouldn't you say?' he repeated, dragging his teacher's gaze away from the view outside. 'But sir, if you put that kind of thing in your GCSE do you think the judges give you better marks?'
Judges. Sirs. Arlo changed his sigh into another smile and focused on the boy. 'I think the examiners would mark you higher if you said something along the lines of rhythm being the lifeblood of music, Nathan. Think of blood, all of you - how it pulses, how it pumps. If blood doesn't pump - if it ceases to pulse around our bodies - what are we?'
The class was silent.
'Come on, guys, what are we?'
The class loved it when their teacher called them 'guys'.
'Fish?' offered Lars
'Fish?' said his teacher.
'Fish are cold-blooded,' Lars muttered while the class began to snigger. 'Isn't that the same thing?'
'No no no,' Arlo said, thinking he ought to check it anyway with Mr Rose the biology teacher. 'I'm talking physically and metaphysically. Come on, guys, if our blood isn't being pumped then it's not pulsing around our body - then what are we?'
The boys gawped at him.
'We are dead!' he said.
There was a murmur, a gasp or two. Schoolboys love the word 'dead'.
'So, if the rhythm is the lifeblood of music, it must mean it is at the heart of it. Music needs rhythm to breathe its life into the listener - don't you think?'
Don't you agree, guys?
Rhythm is at the heart of music. Rhythm is the lifeblood of music. Music needs rhythm to breathe its life into the listener
wow.
well it would all work out if i was good at rhythm...
grr but yeah
just wanted to share with you that all-powerful music quote because, well beacuse it's about music and i was just thinking about how danielle was blogging about lyrics and stuff. so there you go. music. lovely =)
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Life is drawing without an eraser
yes. love those inspiring words. i LOVE my catholic catechesis. i LOVE my faith. i LOVE doing these youth gatherings. sigh.
my life, guys, is based around these main elements:
church
family
church
friends
church
school
church
well yeah i love my church
i love the people there
why?
because they make me think about things
they make me question life
and the values that we all hold
alright
so today we had a catechesis and a mass and a prayer session (sigh.. love these. so relaxing and...perfect for de-stressing and....wow) at the cathedral in the city. and in the relfection part of the catechesis, they showed this slideshow of all these beautiful nature scenes (for want of a better word) and with each slide, there was a quote. well, i coudln't READ all of them..damn you tall people. damn you peter and trung for making me sit BY MYSELF...grrr...anywya i read a few
the ones that i remember are:
1. Life is drawing without an eraser
2. Plan for tomorrow, LIVE for today
well, the first one is the best one, i think
it's jsut like wha ti've been saying to yo uall
life is like drawing without an eraser
it's like
when you make a slightly inaccurate decision, your line falters
but those few times when you know that you've made the RIGHT choice? yeah that line you've just drawn is perfectly straight and firm. and strong. and ...well yeah. and becaus eyou have no eraser, there's no going back, there's no point in regretting what you've done, "there's no regretting the things you went and told. life's full of mistakes destiny and fate." <--guess where those few lines are from? teehee
the second one is so true. you can have your dreams, but don't live for tomrorw. live for right now. make the most of every moment you ahve, because that one momoent only comes around once. see? like today. wow i dont' think i could have spent my day any better.
i'm so glad that peter threatened me and made me go to the DYG beacuse well, it was so worth it. and i spent all day today doing the things thati love with the people i love. the perfect sunday, right?
btw..i spent my day like this:
church in the morning
camp meeting for tn camp
normal tn
out for lunch with family
go home do some homework
DYG catechesis
the mary mackillop walk thingy with peter trung duy tri
talking with people of the same faith from different groups
LOL explaining TN to aussies (love it..LOL)
Palm Sunday mass with the bishops. wow it was so pretty
it was hilaroius, singing with peter and trung and tri (who struggles to read)...duy was singing i think
sigh
see? perfect sunday
love it
toady's DYG theme was
hope
wow
hope
it was like
the perfec ttheme for me
right now
and i got so much ou t of i t
i'm trying to kepe my hope up all the time now
i'm basing everything on hope
i'm trying to keep hope going
through everything
because i nkow that even when i'm unsure and even when it feels like it's all going to fall apart (like right NOW), i know that god is always there
and he is my hope
he is my source of hope
and as long as i have my faith
i have my hope to keep me going through everything
over every little bump in life
i have my faith
i have my hope
FAITH HOPE LOVE
sigh.
the three virtues
just hoping i can keep them with me all the time
wow my first ramblnig on about faith
well one of my first
but yeah
wow man
here we go to WORLD YOUTH DAY 2011 IN SPAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOT
i'm excited already :D
and there are like 2 and a half years to go!!!!!
wow
me
to spain?
by myself?
of course i'll have
thien (more med school stuff)
nhu (YAY GROUP!)
julian (hopefully)
van (YES YES YES!)
peter (yay)
thao (LOL)
tuyen... (=D)
phong (LOL love this guy)
andrew..? maybe
tu? maybe..
wow
it'll be awesome
i'm pumped guys
anyone else really excited about this?
i LOVED WYDSYD 08 now
i can't wait til the next
btw the talk of WYD stems from today being WORLD YOUTH DAY. like when they handed over the cross to the spaniards
today was the last wyd event for WYDSYD08 and the first for spain's WYD
=)
love you all
keep the faith guys
peace
my life, guys, is based around these main elements:
church
family
church
friends
church
school
church
well yeah i love my church
i love the people there
why?
because they make me think about things
they make me question life
and the values that we all hold
alright
so today we had a catechesis and a mass and a prayer session (sigh.. love these. so relaxing and...perfect for de-stressing and....wow) at the cathedral in the city. and in the relfection part of the catechesis, they showed this slideshow of all these beautiful nature scenes (for want of a better word) and with each slide, there was a quote. well, i coudln't READ all of them..damn you tall people. damn you peter and trung for making me sit BY MYSELF...grrr...anywya i read a few
the ones that i remember are:
1. Life is drawing without an eraser
2. Plan for tomorrow, LIVE for today
well, the first one is the best one, i think
it's jsut like wha ti've been saying to yo uall
life is like drawing without an eraser
it's like
when you make a slightly inaccurate decision, your line falters
but those few times when you know that you've made the RIGHT choice? yeah that line you've just drawn is perfectly straight and firm. and strong. and ...well yeah. and becaus eyou have no eraser, there's no going back, there's no point in regretting what you've done, "there's no regretting the things you went and told. life's full of mistakes destiny and fate." <--guess where those few lines are from? teehee
the second one is so true. you can have your dreams, but don't live for tomrorw. live for right now. make the most of every moment you ahve, because that one momoent only comes around once. see? like today. wow i dont' think i could have spent my day any better.
i'm so glad that peter threatened me and made me go to the DYG beacuse well, it was so worth it. and i spent all day today doing the things thati love with the people i love. the perfect sunday, right?
btw..i spent my day like this:
church in the morning
camp meeting for tn camp
normal tn
out for lunch with family
go home do some homework
DYG catechesis
the mary mackillop walk thingy with peter trung duy tri
talking with people of the same faith from different groups
LOL explaining TN to aussies (love it..LOL)
Palm Sunday mass with the bishops. wow it was so pretty
it was hilaroius, singing with peter and trung and tri (who struggles to read)...duy was singing i think
sigh
see? perfect sunday
love it
toady's DYG theme was
hope
wow
hope
it was like
the perfec ttheme for me
right now
and i got so much ou t of i t
i'm trying to kepe my hope up all the time now
i'm basing everything on hope
i'm trying to keep hope going
through everything
because i nkow that even when i'm unsure and even when it feels like it's all going to fall apart (like right NOW), i know that god is always there
and he is my hope
he is my source of hope
and as long as i have my faith
i have my hope to keep me going through everything
over every little bump in life
i have my faith
i have my hope
FAITH HOPE LOVE
sigh.
the three virtues
just hoping i can keep them with me all the time
wow my first ramblnig on about faith
well one of my first
but yeah
wow man
here we go to WORLD YOUTH DAY 2011 IN SPAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOT
i'm excited already :D
and there are like 2 and a half years to go!!!!!
wow
me
to spain?
by myself?
of course i'll have
thien (more med school stuff)
nhu (YAY GROUP!)
julian (hopefully)
van (YES YES YES!)
peter (yay)
thao (LOL)
tuyen... (=D)
phong (LOL love this guy)
andrew..? maybe
tu? maybe..
wow
it'll be awesome
i'm pumped guys
anyone else really excited about this?
i LOVED WYDSYD 08 now
i can't wait til the next
btw the talk of WYD stems from today being WORLD YOUTH DAY. like when they handed over the cross to the spaniards
today was the last wyd event for WYDSYD08 and the first for spain's WYD
=)
love you all
keep the faith guys
peace
In response to your words...
to weetyr:
yes i do know (more than you could ever undersatnd) that it IS good to release things. to explode. hell yeah. i know it. trust me. ask thien. ask peter. ask nhu. ask julian. ASK ANYONE who has known me for...well ask anyone. because of everyone, i have the most experience with blowing up. trust me. and yes i am sorry too. i have no idea. why. but i jsut hate it when people make inferences about me. when peolpe make up theories. and i know it's your thing. i know well, it's been bugging me for my whole life. when people say oh yeah the girl is asian she must be smart. oh yeah that girl is asian she loves maths. FUCKING STOP WITH THE FUCKING STEREOTYPES. and hten i met you. wow you were so different from cliches and stereotypes. at first i was actually fascinated by the theories yo ucame up with, because the ones that i knew of were actually quite right. but then now becaus eyou know me too well it's just like...errrr stop please? so yeah. that's the message i was trying to put across. i just didn't do it very well, did i?
to danielle:
i was only using your chocolate thing as an example >__>
what i really was trying to say is this:
if you can't find the courage to leave behind the comforting shores of home, how can you expect to discover new horizons and meet new people, or even have any chances of living your dreams?
if you cant find the strenght to let go of your nice warm, SAFE home, how can you expect to be successful?
the idea is that to get somewhere in life, people need to let go of the past and just move on with life, because life goes on no matter what. the race of life is still being run, even if you decide to no longer participate. you lose if yo ucan't keep up. that's life.
no this is NOT all directed to you, dani. just that you said the chocolate thing and yeah. =)
to matt:
same thing as what i said to dani. except i have one more thing to add: the whole moving on with life is a recommendation. okay crapp yword. more like something that everyone should strive to do. when they're ready.
to axel:
it's good that you're reading and talking on my blog, but yeah. remember to not be a sheep. be your own voice. it's okay to agree, but i still think that yeah. don't worry. forget everything from "to axel" to the end.
so yeah. now for my REAL post for today
yes i do know (more than you could ever undersatnd) that it IS good to release things. to explode. hell yeah. i know it. trust me. ask thien. ask peter. ask nhu. ask julian. ASK ANYONE who has known me for...well ask anyone. because of everyone, i have the most experience with blowing up. trust me. and yes i am sorry too. i have no idea. why. but i jsut hate it when people make inferences about me. when peolpe make up theories. and i know it's your thing. i know well, it's been bugging me for my whole life. when people say oh yeah the girl is asian she must be smart. oh yeah that girl is asian she loves maths. FUCKING STOP WITH THE FUCKING STEREOTYPES. and hten i met you. wow you were so different from cliches and stereotypes. at first i was actually fascinated by the theories yo ucame up with, because the ones that i knew of were actually quite right. but then now becaus eyou know me too well it's just like...errrr stop please? so yeah. that's the message i was trying to put across. i just didn't do it very well, did i?
to danielle:
i was only using your chocolate thing as an example >__>
what i really was trying to say is this:
if you can't find the courage to leave behind the comforting shores of home, how can you expect to discover new horizons and meet new people, or even have any chances of living your dreams?
if you cant find the strenght to let go of your nice warm, SAFE home, how can you expect to be successful?
the idea is that to get somewhere in life, people need to let go of the past and just move on with life, because life goes on no matter what. the race of life is still being run, even if you decide to no longer participate. you lose if yo ucan't keep up. that's life.
no this is NOT all directed to you, dani. just that you said the chocolate thing and yeah. =)
to matt:
same thing as what i said to dani. except i have one more thing to add: the whole moving on with life is a recommendation. okay crapp yword. more like something that everyone should strive to do. when they're ready.
to axel:
it's good that you're reading and talking on my blog, but yeah. remember to not be a sheep. be your own voice. it's okay to agree, but i still think that yeah. don't worry. forget everything from "to axel" to the end.
so yeah. now for my REAL post for today
Friday, April 3, 2009
moving on with life
okay so i was just telling danielle to move on wiht life and not keep referring to the past
but this is not something that only danielle does. LOTS of people do this
they always say something like, oh yeah like that time when MY HEART GOT FUCKING BROKEN BY THIS GUY. okay yeah sure we KNOW you were shattered and we dont' care anymore okay? no danielle, i am NOT referring to you, beacuse that dickhead deserves to be bitched about. i'm just saying how everyone just keeps holding onto the past
okay i do it too
i always hold onto the past
because i dont' want things to change
but some pe opel hold onto the past bec ause they dont' want to face the future and what comes
okay bring it. i can't wait to see how things turn out in the future..but only as long as things dont' get scrweed up by change
i can move on with things
and just
keep things to myself
like with the whole WYD thing
wow man, whever i talk about it, i still get overly excited
and wistful
becaus ei want things to be that way again
and last year's tn camp
wow man
that was SIMPLY AWESOME
LOL the tents
LOL the slope we slept on
LOL everyone wanted to sleep with me cause i was warmest
LOL our group puttin gup the tent and nearly killing ourselves with the poles
LOL D UC"S ROCK AAHAHAHA
LOL LOL hung and duc with the pens
LOL
AAHAHAHA
me solving everything
me giving pens back to duc and always getting them from hung
our constant supply of pens won us the camp
AAHAHAHAHA
GO AWESOME TEAAM!
but the differnce between me and some other people
is that i keep that excitement inside of me
and i reminisce by myself and laugh to myself
because i know that to this point in time, everyone's kind of sick of hearing about the same things
i know i am , especially when i' not in the right mood
see i move on, yet keep the memories
people SEEM to move on, but they keep on re-living the experience, as if nothing has changed
guys things have changed
and you WILL have to move on with life
okay?
just a note for all those who seem to be stuck in the present
but
yes.
please try to let go of the past and move on
because if you don't move on, you'll never get to those new and more exciting opportunities.
if you can't learn to let go of the firts step and reach out for the next, you woin't have a chance of being any more successful in life.
it's like this
if yo uhave a piece of cake
and you're over it
say it's chocolate
and you don't like chocolate anymore
but you keep INSISTING that yo ustill like chocolate
and
you...will never find new flabvours and food to like if you keep eating the same thing?
OKAY CRAPPY ANALOGY but you get the idea. right?
so yeah
btw. don't go around PRETENDING you like chocolate
bcause
i love chocolate =)
but this is not something that only danielle does. LOTS of people do this
they always say something like, oh yeah like that time when MY HEART GOT FUCKING BROKEN BY THIS GUY. okay yeah sure we KNOW you were shattered and we dont' care anymore okay? no danielle, i am NOT referring to you, beacuse that dickhead deserves to be bitched about. i'm just saying how everyone just keeps holding onto the past
okay i do it too
i always hold onto the past
because i dont' want things to change
but some pe opel hold onto the past bec ause they dont' want to face the future and what comes
okay bring it. i can't wait to see how things turn out in the future..but only as long as things dont' get scrweed up by change
i can move on with things
and just
keep things to myself
like with the whole WYD thing
wow man, whever i talk about it, i still get overly excited
and wistful
becaus ei want things to be that way again
and last year's tn camp
wow man
that was SIMPLY AWESOME
LOL the tents
LOL the slope we slept on
LOL everyone wanted to sleep with me cause i was warmest
LOL our group puttin gup the tent and nearly killing ourselves with the poles
LOL D UC"S ROCK AAHAHAHA
LOL LOL hung and duc with the pens
LOL
AAHAHAHA
me solving everything
me giving pens back to duc and always getting them from hung
our constant supply of pens won us the camp
AAHAHAHAHA
GO AWESOME TEAAM!
but the differnce between me and some other people
is that i keep that excitement inside of me
and i reminisce by myself and laugh to myself
because i know that to this point in time, everyone's kind of sick of hearing about the same things
i know i am , especially when i' not in the right mood
see i move on, yet keep the memories
people SEEM to move on, but they keep on re-living the experience, as if nothing has changed
guys things have changed
and you WILL have to move on with life
okay?
just a note for all those who seem to be stuck in the present
but
yes.
please try to let go of the past and move on
because if you don't move on, you'll never get to those new and more exciting opportunities.
if you can't learn to let go of the firts step and reach out for the next, you woin't have a chance of being any more successful in life.
it's like this
if yo uhave a piece of cake
and you're over it
say it's chocolate
and you don't like chocolate anymore
but you keep INSISTING that yo ustill like chocolate
and
you...will never find new flabvours and food to like if you keep eating the same thing?
OKAY CRAPPY ANALOGY but you get the idea. right?
so yeah
btw. don't go around PRETENDING you like chocolate
bcause
i love chocolate =)
three's a crowd
okay guys. i get it. three's a crowd.
but it's just so stupid because some of the time
when i need to talk to you
you let me talk
and then you just leave me?
like
seriously
guys
that's not the meaning of friendship. sure yeah, ti's good that you let me talk when i need to, but you do what older siblings are meant to do. walk off when you've got each other, and leave the younger sister out. because she's too young. leave her with the drunk people, leave her with the need to talk to someone SOBER WHEN YOUR"E THE ONLY OTHER FUCKING SOBER PEOPLE IN THE PLACE.
oh and leave her
to get her heart stabbed over and over again
leave bleeding on the floor while you go for a drive
a drive. in someone else's fucking car.
so i get it
older siblings can be like this
and i know that it's just somehting you ahve to accept
and move on wiht life but really
i miss your company
but clearly
you'll only be my company when you feel like it
so...i guess i ought to stop trying
if you want to talk to me
you will
right?
because i'm not goign to waste my effort when i know that that effort will be completely wasted
i shoudl know
i've tried so many times and been hurt and left hanging too many times.
how ironic is it that
three's a fucking crowd when it comes to certain people,
yet with andyweetyrdaniellekatrinatessamattkelseygiayen, 9 is a crowd? our group has 8...but our "crowd" level is one more person. maybe it's because we're comfortable with 8 people. 8 is such a nice number. 3 guys. 5 girls. very good. but if i can feel comfortable with 8 people at school, but only about 4 at church, an dabout 2 the rest of the time...if i can adapt, how come noone else can? i mean, sometiems at church i'm only with tuyena nd thao. and it's really good. and other times i'm with tu and tram and ngann. and then there's times when i'm with about 20 people and we're just in a massively awesome group? like that time, with thien, andrew, vi, thy, van, julian, phong, phi and me and we had that argumenta bout conformity? yeah. that was awesome. so how come i'm able to to adapt. how come other people can with me. how come you can't? and i'm your "sister" for goodness sake. gosh.
ohw ell
ima stop trtying now
ima move on with it
because you'll talk to me when you want to talk to me. 'kay?
but it's just so stupid because some of the time
when i need to talk to you
you let me talk
and then you just leave me?
like
seriously
guys
that's not the meaning of friendship. sure yeah, ti's good that you let me talk when i need to, but you do what older siblings are meant to do. walk off when you've got each other, and leave the younger sister out. because she's too young. leave her with the drunk people, leave her with the need to talk to someone SOBER WHEN YOUR"E THE ONLY OTHER FUCKING SOBER PEOPLE IN THE PLACE.
oh and leave her
to get her heart stabbed over and over again
leave bleeding on the floor while you go for a drive
a drive. in someone else's fucking car.
so i get it
older siblings can be like this
and i know that it's just somehting you ahve to accept
and move on wiht life but really
i miss your company
but clearly
you'll only be my company when you feel like it
so...i guess i ought to stop trying
if you want to talk to me
you will
right?
because i'm not goign to waste my effort when i know that that effort will be completely wasted
i shoudl know
i've tried so many times and been hurt and left hanging too many times.
how ironic is it that
three's a fucking crowd when it comes to certain people,
yet with andyweetyrdaniellekatrinatessamattkelseygiayen, 9 is a crowd? our group has 8...but our "crowd" level is one more person. maybe it's because we're comfortable with 8 people. 8 is such a nice number. 3 guys. 5 girls. very good. but if i can feel comfortable with 8 people at school, but only about 4 at church, an dabout 2 the rest of the time...if i can adapt, how come noone else can? i mean, sometiems at church i'm only with tuyena nd thao. and it's really good. and other times i'm with tu and tram and ngann. and then there's times when i'm with about 20 people and we're just in a massively awesome group? like that time, with thien, andrew, vi, thy, van, julian, phong, phi and me and we had that argumenta bout conformity? yeah. that was awesome. so how come i'm able to to adapt. how come other people can with me. how come you can't? and i'm your "sister" for goodness sake. gosh.
ohw ell
ima stop trtying now
ima move on with it
because you'll talk to me when you want to talk to me. 'kay?
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
number 12
so guys i failed at number 12
on matt's (YET AGAIN IT"S MATT) email thingo
the feng shui one
the one that was like
here are the tips for life
follow these and you'll have a happy life
and number 12 was :
talk slowly but think quickly
WELL
i talk quickly
and think even more quickly
most of the time :D
some of the time i'm just thinking way too much
so yeah
i was just sayin to sai how
i make time now for reading
and i said
"i now make time for my books"
and i was GOING to say "i now make time for my words"
but THEN i realised
that it is BECAUSE i dont' have enough time for my words
taht i talk VERY FAST
so...
yeah
that's all i had to say guys
and and
i just wa nted to let you know
about that
because it was so
WOW LOL to me
well
yeah i'm gonna go read now..before i humiliate myself even more O_O
on matt's (YET AGAIN IT"S MATT) email thingo
the feng shui one
the one that was like
here are the tips for life
follow these and you'll have a happy life
and number 12 was :
talk slowly but think quickly
WELL
i talk quickly
and think even more quickly
most of the time :D
some of the time i'm just thinking way too much
so yeah
i was just sayin to sai how
i make time now for reading
and i said
"i now make time for my books"
and i was GOING to say "i now make time for my words"
but THEN i realised
that it is BECAUSE i dont' have enough time for my words
taht i talk VERY FAST
so...
yeah
that's all i had to say guys
and and
i just wa nted to let you know
about that
because it was so
WOW LOL to me
well
yeah i'm gonna go read now..before i humiliate myself even more O_O
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