Red Alert!

i am in danger of a freaking mentalnervouswhateveryouwantt callit breakdown
i am in danger of screaming very loudly and causing all human beings within a 100m radius to become profoundly deaf.
i am in danger of becoming extremely stressed out!
if ONLY people would just LET ME WORK
i KNOW i can fix all of this stress and uneasiness
and fear
and ...
everything
if i could only finish my homework every single night
EVERY single night
seriously
i never get all of it done!
i never have any time to read
or any time to play piano
or clarinet
or ANYTHING, for that matter
seriously
my days are
wake up
swimming (every second day)
school
get home
shower
read for like 5 mins
eat munchies
homework
dinner
homework
msn (if i'm too stressed out...)
and then
BEDTIME!
DING DING!
then i read in bed
for like 10 mins
then i die
then i wake up
AND DO IT ALL AGAIN

gosh
what a life
and well
sometimes if i work uninterrupted
then i can finish a LOT of work
and have lots of time left over for piano
and reading
and clarinet
and just mucking around
NOT ANYMORE GUYS
seriously

people shoudl jsut LEAVE ME ALONE TO WORK
wow i wish i had my own study room
or even a desk in my room
although that would be too stuffy and small and squishy
so yes
even my music isn't loud enough to drown everyone out

PEACE needed
please
....
hard isn't it?

and when i'm stressed
or soemthing
i think i talk less at home
at home i'm really quiet
i said about 200 words today since getting home from school
the rest of hte time
i've just been
working
....
working...
quietly
and singing ot myself
btw i din't count the lyrics as part of how many words i've spoken
well i can't wai tuntil tomorrow
i'ma ctually goign to get out of the house tomorrow night

true, it's only to a sports program at church
but at least it's a change of freaking scenery
isn't it?
and i shall find a spot
to do homework
HOMEWORK
seriously
stressing out just a LITTLE bit
...
OMG I DON"T EVEN KNOW WHAT TIME MY PIANO LESSON IS TOMORORW!!!
SHOOOOOOOOT

yen=DEAD

oh no oh no oh no
i already missed last week's lesson
i TH INK it's 11
....
oh crap
um
i'll have to check?
tomororw morning
SOMEONE REMIND ME PLEASE
TO CHECK MY PIANO TIME STRAIGHT AFTER HOMEGROUP TOMORROW MORNING!!

why oh why does the music suite have to be so far aw ay from
a) GOLD 1A (my homeroom)
b) CM2 (my jap, first lesson, class)

sigh.
oh well

i was on a ROLL before
i finished one and a half pages of my jap booklet assignment
before I WAS INTERRUPTED
AGAIN
so now
let's see how much i can do
alright
attempt #2 at finishing homework

sigh
take two....