someone please tell me

someone please tell me
what is wrong
ok WHY IS MY WRITING SLANTING?!
how annoying
anyhow
yes as you may have noticed, i dont' backspace very often
in fact, hardly at all

but this is besides thej point
so could someone plese tell me what is wrong with me
once i tell you the symptoms?
alright
here goes:

laziness
utter laziness
i never do anything useful anymore
i KNOW that i have lots of homework that needs to be done
and i know that i have twice as much as eveyrone else because i'm doing the IB and seeking IBO accreditation
but i just CNA"T do it O_O

fear
fear of IB
seriously
it's getting ot the point where i'm scared of the words "international baccalaurette" (i think that's how you spell it...)
i'm even scared of the LETTERS "IB"
because
BECAUSE all it means for me
is that i'm going to have to do twice as much work as eveyrone else
and i'm goign to be marked using a different marking scheme
one that is just so much HARDER
seriously
if i see one more rubric for the IBO i'm going to scream
out loud
in class
because i've seen SOO MANY
and they all say
IBO MARKING SCHEME FOR STUDENTS SEEKING IBO ACCREDITATION...
and they all mean the same thing
i'm being marked differently
from everyone else
i'm being watched more CLOSELY
it's quite a frightening thought

tiredness
tired all the time
ok i AM waking up at 6 am every second day to go to swimming trainigns
but why am i tired ALL the tiem?
to the point where i have headaches throughout the day
at school
and at home

hmm i think that's all my symptoms at the moment
but i hope that i'm still confident
and appear happy most of the time
to everyone around me
i'll get over it
don't worry =)
jsut a passing phase
it's already starting to go away
see? i'm going to stop this blog RIGHT now and go do HOMEWORK
HARDCORE HOMEWORK until bedtime
alright
determination is the key

let's see if i can follow through with that...