Crossroads..?

Have you ever read "The Illustrated Mum" by Jacqueline Wilson? It's a good book, read it if you haven't. Jacqueline Wilson is one of my favourite authors. In the beginning of the book, the mum finds herself confused and says that she is "at crossroads" and goes and has a tattoo done on her arm of a celtic cross. (then comes home and doesn't care about her daughter, drinks a whole heap in what she thinks is private, then collapses on the couch..but that is besides the point)

I think i'm at crossroads too. See how i said "i THINK"? I can't even make up my mind whether i'm at crossroads or not. How pathetic of me. Ok, i guess i AM at crossroads. At least ONE thing is clear. *sigh*

*You're my sunshine after the rain,
you're the cure against my fear and my pain
cause i'm losing my mind
when you're not around
it's all
it's all because of you*

It's an old 90 degrees song, and it's on a CD in my family car. And i listen to it rather often because my parents like the CD too much to let me change it every now and then.

And because it's music and because it has singing in it (hehe), i sing along, as i do to just about everything. And as i sang to it today, i wondered, "Who is my "you"?" If you understood that question, i'm proud because it doesn't seem to be an easily understood question.

Why am i confused? Well, i have an idea of who my "you" is, but it has a question mark next to it, because i'm so unsure. Also, i made it pretty clear to my ex that i didn't want to be tied to someone in a relationship, and it would be mean to go for a "you" when i made it so clear to my ex that i didn't want to be tied. Hmm...maybe it's time i just sat back and let things work themselves out for now. Take action only when it's really neccessary. I'll see how things work out, because i must admit, i wouldn't mind having this "you" to myself. Then again, who doesn't want their "you" to be their own?

HOW CONFUSING WAS THAT??!!

glad i got it out of my system, though..

Confused,
Gia-Yen..Yen..i answer to many names LOL